Swimming in Opportunity ~

Tis late. Off of work. Busting my @$$... FEELS WONDERFUL! I LOVE IT! NO COMPLAINTS...
I have ZERO idea how ANYTHING is going to actually get accomplished in my little world yet it will. This much I do know now. Everything WILL work out. Amazing. So I am not stressing or "planning" tomorrow today. I am finishing out this night constructively and kindly. For the record, I am on day 8 of the captains log! That's another project all together. ha Ha HA ~

I DOVE INTO THE OCEAN TODAY. It was amazing and I wasn't afraid. In fact I was more afraid to walk away and not do it. Because of what I was wearing and getting a car seat wet and blah blah blah. Right? Just a bunch of dumb excuses strung together so you give up by sheer virtue of being bored into submission listening to all that gibberish. I've OVER it. I AM SO OVER IT. Who am I living this life for this time around??? GOD, THAT'S "WHO". I am LIVING. I am LOVING. I am ME ~

Goddess, God
He's out there. I felt it. This time, it was close, REALLY close. OPEN AND WILLING. I am. I am. I am.
Turtle's Mom. Turtle's Dad. I am. I am. I am. Thank you for all of the blessings. The love, the joy, the challenges, the craziness, the perfection that is life. I LOVE YOU, I THANK YOU.
Your Daughter ~

Top 5 things I am GRATEFUL for today:
Theresa
The "family"
Cooper
Raw Oysters
Turtles

Magical Miracles ~

So much has transpired. So much of a new journey with all the "lessons" rolled into an everyday application of what I have learned. Week one is officially over and here I go. I have set a precedent for this new life of mine. Lots of learning lessons and as with all learning lessons and transitions there is a learning curve. I give myself a B ++++. Today is my Monday and already it is better. I worshiped God at the Ocean, my church.

Just in case I have missed a prayer or not been thankful and GRATEFUL enough here are my top 50:
Oceans
Waves
Water
Lakes
Rivers
Sunshine
Sea Otters
Seals
Crows
Seagulls
Salt
Sand
Driftwood
Camping
Fires
Calm
Peace
Strength
Determination
Fortitude
Courage
Choices
Lessons
Consideration
Generosity
Spirit
Gentleness
Boundaries
Clarification
Goddesses
DIVINITY
GOD
Christ
The Buddha
Krishna
Ganesha
Kali
The Naga
My Son
My Daughter
Laughter
Joy
Meditation
Openness
Willingness
LIFE
Yoga
Vision
Beauty
LOVE

Goddess, GOD
Thank you for answering ALL of my prayers.
May I continue to be your vessel in all things.
May I proceed with an open heart and speak the language of love.
Thank you.
Your Daughter

P.S. I'm "here" loving you both. Anywhen and Anywhere, Mom

5 ~

God ~
THANK YOU

Goddess ~
THANK YOU

Top 15 things I am GRATEFUL for today:
Peace
Serenity
Right Action
Right Choices
Right Thought
Right Words
Cooper
Bobby
Mz. Mary
Mz. Pam
Mz. Holly
Mz. Angie
Happiness
Synchronicity
Love

P.S. NEVER loving you more than NOW!!!
Mom

Snatam Kaur ~ Deep Blue Sea

Matthew Perryman Jones Beneath the Silver Moon

It's all in the numbers ~

1 - God, Beginning, The Source, First, Commencement, Unity, The Only One
2 - Witness, Testimony, Division, Separation
3 - God Head, Divine Completeness, Perfect Testimony
4 - Earth, Creation, The World (4 Seasons, 4 Corners of the Earth... 4)
5 - Atonement (Christ's 5 nails, 5 places, Denied him 5 times), Grace, Life
6 - Man (Man Created on 6th Day)
7 - Perfection (Revelation)
8 - Number of Resurrection, New Beginning (Noah, 8th person on Earth, New Heaven and Earth on 8th             day of Resurrection of Jesus, Jesus numerical value 888)
9 - Completeness, Finality, Wholeness, Number of Holy Spirit, Fruit or Gifts
10 - Law, Order, Restoration, Government, Number of Trail, Testing Responsibility
11 - Incompleteness, Disorganized, Disintegration, 1 beyond 10 but short of 12, Number of Lawlessness,
the anti-Christ
12 - Divine Government, The Apostalistic Fullness (12 stones, 12 breads, 12 Apostles, 12 months in a year)
13 - Apostacy, Nimrod (13th son of Adam), Rebellion, Double Proportion (Judas/Paul), Ephram 13th tribe
14 - Passover
17 - Spiritual Order (Ark rested on the 17th day)
24 - Number of Priestly courses or Governmental Perfection (24 elders, Living Ones had 24 wings)
30 - Number of Consecration, Maturity for Ministry
40 - Probation, Testing, Clothing in Victory of Judgement
50 - Number of Pentacost. Liberty, Freedom, Jubilee
70 - Prior to increase
75 - Number of Separation cleansing or purification

4.40 4:20 4/20 ~

I saw the signs. 3 x 3
Three sets of 3 different signs
Mz. P and I found the message:
The TIME to LOVE is NOW

WOW
WOW
WOW

Message Received.

Goddess, GOD
I AM LISTENING. I AM WILLING. I AM OPEN. I AM LOVE.  I AM.
Your Vessel
Your Daughter

Top 10 things I am FUCKING GRATEFUL for:
Krishna
Souls
Signs
Messengers
Sacredness
Synchronicity
Divinity
Grace
Love
Yoga

P.S. My two angels always remember life is precious. LIVE IT ~ LOVE IT. Mom
P.S.S. I am leaving in 40 hours and 20 minutes from "The Mountain". Will call when I get to my next new destination.

Bow to You - Ananda & Jaya Lakshmi (Official Video)

Fabulously Fatigued ~

Never knew I could or would be so joyous to be so damn exhausted. Packing, cleaning, condensing. This is it. This is where I start living my life ~ God brought me to it. God will bring me through it. Open and willing I am. This is my time. Now is my time. Today, right this moment. The time is always now. Ohhh sweet life, I love you so ~

Goddess, God
Thank you again and again for answering all of my prayers.  I am humbly your vessel and gloriously alive ~
Your daughter

Top 10 things I am GRATEFUL for today and (yesterday):
Skype
Sweetness
Hummus
Yogis
Kundalini
Appreciation
Light
Grace
Children
Music

P.S. You know what time it is my children? Time to love. I am right now loving you ~ Mom

James Taylor - Your Smiling Face (live 1988)

...and so much more ~

I think I am done stumbling for proof of Divinity. I believe, I believe, I believe. Angels are watching over me, everywhere around me. I am truly blessed and this is clearly my time.

I am wiped out. Body is exhausted and yet sleep eludes me. Up early in the a.m. to cook my last meal here on "The Mountain". Said goodbye to my new friends in the "moat". There are some lovely people I shall miss, yet I am so excited truly excited to be moving on and starting this new life. I am READY. I have accomplished more in the least amount of time possible and feel exhilarated by it. Exhilarated and a bit overwhelmed if I let myself think about. But if I stumble now, if I fall down, if I can't be all I can be, well that is still not a failure, because I will pick myself up again and again. It's who I am. I have always been a survivor and now I am one who lives and soon I shall fly as high as my wings can take me. I am ready to soar and just standing on the precipice ready to launch. Oh I am ready to cut these tethers. Patience, patience, this will all come soon enough. Yes, there is much to still do and enjoy here. Being in this moment with my dear dear friend Mz. P, Mz. King, Mz. Linda and the yogis and my sweet sentient friends. The riotous colors of Spring. Yes, there is much I will think of fondly and much I will remember with joy. That is how I shall depart, with love in my heart. Always ~

Goddess, God
Thank you for the patience to appreciate things to come and appreciate what is here right now. There is such wonder in every moment, in every breath. Simple things, a simple life. I have everything I need and so very much more. I thank you. Truly, deeply, humbly. Wahe Guru Wahe Jio ~
Your Daughter

Top 5 things I am GRATEFUL for today:
Refills
Divine Guidance
Ease
Simplicity
Detachment

P.S. मैं तुमसे प्यार करता हूँ ~ Mom 

Tyrone Wells - A Beautiful Place To Be

Sweet Soul ~

I am so very thankful for one of the most beautiful souls I have ever encountered, my sweet friend, "The Swede" ~ 

This new life shall be an interesting one and more real than I ever could have imagined. Honesty = Me. Alas, I have friends with whom spirits are shared and love is the key to eternal companionship. A close group of souls who unite and ignite LOVE. Blessed be and thank you all for sharing in this journey ~ 

Buddhist Definition of Love and Attachment in Relationships

Love - free, flexible, patient, kind, trusting, confident, content, altruistic, generous, understanding that love exists within, expression of Buddha nature

Attachment - clinging, inflexible, impatient, unkind, jealous, insecure, craving, selfish, greedy, fulfillment sought from outside self, expression of ego

I am a being of Love ~

Those who have rejected me, rejected love. The ego heard "me" but that was not the truth.  The truth shall set me free as I accept now I was never rejected, love was rejected. True love. 

I always wonder how to thank someone for their gift of self. It is truly the most remarkably self-less gift yet it looks odd to write it. A bit, contradictory even. Hmmm...

Goddess, God

There was a time, not long ago, I merely existed

Today I am here, awake and thankful I persisted

Tomorrow is coming soon enough, I am now ready

Fortified by your Divine LOVE I shall walk steady~

Thank you.

Your Daughter

Top 5 things I am GRATEFUL for today:

Tolkens

Serenity

Vitamin C

Pixies

Unfoldment

P.S. My children, my loves, my doves, my heart. I am with you, you are with me. Saturday I am leaving. I shall miss the time you were not here, to see and share. Yet I will not stay in that place, instead I look forward into the unknown and think,"Someday they shall share your space again, and this time in joy." Mom

Ink Soundtrack (playlist)

Butch Walker And The Black Widows - Synthesizers

Simple Thank ~

Goddess, God
By Thy Grace.
I am.
Thank you.
Your Daughter

Top 5 things I am GRATEFUL for today:
Benefactors
Benevolence
Beauty
Brilliance
Bounty

P.S. Love you more than yesterday. Is that possible? It is. Mom

Nighty Night ~

Goddess, God
Thank you for answering all of my prayers. Thank you for Grace. Thank you for Love.
Your Daughter

Top 5 things I am GRATEFUL for today:
Kindness
Generosity of Spirit
Patience
Love
Tenderness

P.S. I am moving in a week my children. To the ocean. I will write you when I have a new address. Oh how I love you and long to share everything with you. I am off to begin this new life. My transition into the world is beginning. The new me in a new world. I will be working diligently towards the day you are both back in my life and until then know you are always in my heart ~ Mom

The Beatles - Across The Universe

God's Grace ~

I am awake. By God's Grace ~
I am HERE. By God's Grace ~
I am LOVE. By God's Grace ~
I am ALIVE. By God's Grace~

Thank you God ~

Your Daughter

Gentleman- Hold on strong

Protect and Serve ~

Thank you Goddess, Thank you God

Your Daughter

Top 5 things I am GRATEFUL for today:

Mary

Pam

Grey

Lani

Paullie

P.S. Kids, I love ya!

Before Bed ~

Thank you Goddess, Thank you God
Your Daughter

Top 10 things (yesterday's list included!) I am GRATEFUL for today:
Bon Voyage
Life
Waves
Friends
Family
Children
Support
Dallas
Loving
Curls

P.S. I am starting my new life kids. Give me a few to get on my own feet. Starting school and a new job. I shall be in touch, always. I am loving you, always. Mom

Ralph Zurmuhle - Lullaby For my Soul

Here comes the sun ~

After a lifetime of grey and cloudy skies, a world is unfolding with the brightest of suns yet to come
A world full of bliss and light, a world full of laughter and joy, a world full of love ~

I didn't know, I had no clue, there wasn't much point in dreaming, there was no point in pretending
I didn't know, I hadn't met you, where there was darkness there was pain, there was such sorrow
I didn't know, I have been true, here is when everything started, my life through love has begun again

Goddess, God
Fortify me in your strength, your love, your will. I am your vessel. I thank thee ~
Your Daughter

Top 5 things I am GRATEFUL for today:
Dragons
The smell of sunshine
Mother Earth
The sound of the ocean
Goodness

P.S. I'm on my way. I may not know exactly where I am going, but I am going my children into my new life. Know my door, or my tent flap, or the smoke flaps to my tipi are open to you both (It's still me you two, only more me than I have ever been), as is always the entrance to my heart. Adoring you, loving you, dreaming of you ~ Mom

George Harrison - My Sweet Lord HD

The Final Analysis ~

People are often unreasonable and self-centered. Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of ulterior motives. Be kind anyway.
If you are honest, people may cheat you. Be honest anyway.
If you find happiness, people may be jealous. Be happy anyway.
The good you do today may be forgotten tomorrow. Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have and it may never be enough. Give your best anyway.
For you see, in the end, it is between you and God. It was never between you and them anyway. 
- Mother Teresa

I was reminded of one of my favorite quotes of all times tonight. "The Final Analysis". I also thought that perhaps this should be my prayer each night. ???

So, tonight I will be forgiving, kind, honest, happy, good, and the best is I will share it all with God. 

Goddess, God
I thank you for creating me in your image. The image of love.
Your Daughter

Top 5 things I am GRATEFUL for today:
Sweetness
Weeping
Bells
Vibration
Sincerity

P.S. There is a place within my life, that is my heart, where you both reside. Mom

Love excerpt ~

"That's the thing about true love, it can slip through your fingers.  It's the most powerful magic in the world. The only magic powerful enough to break any curse. It must be protected at all costs." - Once Upon a Time

James Taylor - Shower the People (Live/1988)

Moving onward ~

Rejection never felt so good! I can't believe I gave someone the equivalent of Charlie Wonko's golden ticket and quite literally had it shredded in my face and feel better about life and love than I ever have. Quite amazing how life works out. I am more sure and steadfast in my beliefs, values, and self than ever before. I am ready for this new life and to live as the truest form of myself that I have ever been. This has been the most affirming moment of my life to date. I have acted as my truest self and accepted or rejected by others, I am loving the me that is truly love. I am love. Love is who I am. Simple as that ~

Goddess, God
Agape, Love, Bliss, Wonder, Amazement, and Joy. I thank thee.
Your Pure Daughter

Top 5 things I am GRATEFUL for today:
Rejection
Authenticity
Smell of Sunshine
Sweden
Hummus

P.S. Have I told you both lately that I love you?  Mom

Mooji - Embodiment Of Truth In Dub.wmv

For whom life's bell Tolles ~

"Give up defining yourself - to yourself or to others. You won't die. You will come to life. And don't be concerned with how others define you. When they define you, they are limiting themselves, so it's their problem. Whenever you interact with people, don't be there primarily as a function or a role, but as the field of conscious Presence. You can only lose something that you have, but you cannot lose something that you are." ~Eckhart Tolle

Etana - "Dont Forget" Music Video

Woke up this morning ~

Waking up is always, ALWAYS a good thing, a GREAT thing. It has been the test of the day to persevere, to look rejection in the eye and realize it's "their shit" not "my shit". To work THROUGH IT and to NOT get stuck IN IT. The caps make me feel a whole heck of a lot better. Feeling love for this world and all sentient beings in it. I'd rather just forgive and forget. I'm about the love. I'm not regressing, I'm progressing.

I AM LOVE.

Goddess, GOD
THANK YOU FOR HELPING ME OVERCOME THIS PAIN AND SORROW AND LOVE TODAY AND READY MYSELF FOR TOMORROW ~ Though the obstacles are in my way, I know through you I can and WILL overcome! It is never too late, that is what second chances, tomorrows are for. That is what this next moment is for. Overcoming. Thank you for this life ~
Your daughter

Top 5 things I am GRATEFUL for today:
Forgiveness
Strawberries
Closure
Resolve
Tears

P.S. Planning this new life and the day you will each be a part in it. I love you. Always, Mom

The Proclaimers - I'm On My Way

The Five Stairsteps - Ooh Child (Things are Gonna Get Easier) [MP3/Downl...

Unchained Melody ~

Loving through it (life) and not in it. You don't have to be in the midst of things to be loving it. Freedom is what love gives you. Unconditional love frees you. It does not chain nor bind. It allows your spirit to soar to the highest heights. It supports and does not contest the altitude of your soul. It is the supreme height of bliss. My thoughts for the night ~

Goddess, God

I stand naked as intended and today I have accepted it. As intended. I spoke truth. I spoke intention. I spoke love. Thank you for this life. I shall work doubly hard tomorrow to cherish it even more. 

Your daughter

Top 5 things I am GRATEFUL for today:

Angels

Unsung Goddesses

Mz. P

Sweet Sharon

Irish Indians

P.S. Oh my two dearest delights of my soul, I long to hold you, hear you, know you. Always, Mom

No more I love you's (Annie Lennox)

The Name of God ~

Om: The vibration of the Supreme, The name of God ~

Peace to all. Life to all ~

Laughter to all. Love to all ~

Smile.

Goddess, God ~
I love thee.
I thank thee.
Your Daughter

Top 5 things I am GRATEFUL for today:
Peace
Life
Laughter
Love
OM

P.S. Oh how I love you both. Mom

Ulysses ~

"To strive, to seek, to find, and not to yield." ~ Ulysses by Lord Alfred Tennyson

Goddess, God
Thank you for answering all of my prayers.
Your Daughter

Top 5:
Life
Breath
Hope
Love
Kindness

P.S. I love you

Learning How to Pray ~

One thing I want to share with my children is to learn how to pray. I saw a post on Facebook not too long ago on a very inspirational site that had it pretty clearly written out. If you pray for patience you will end up with MORE to learn to be patient about. If you pray for strength you will end up with MORE to learn to be strong about...etc. I realize that my prayers may not have been answered as I THINK I would like them answered but the truth is that EVERY prayer IS answered in GOD's time, in GOD's way. I am learning to be THANKFUL for GOD's timing in answering prayers and realizing they've already been answered. I just have yet to see it ~ A shift in perspective can change the world, your world...

I am learning to place all of my insecurities in God.

I'm here to listen, I'm here to learn. 

One Blessed Love ~

“There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle.”
― Albert Einstein

Progress ~

Set the intention. See the goal in sight. Make miracles happen. All the answers are within. All of the tools are provided. No excuses ~

Goddess, God ~
Thank you for answering every single prayer ~
Your Daughter

Top 5 things I am GRATEFUL for today:
Water
Options
Solitude
Bob
Photo Ops

P.S.  "Every little thing's is gonna be alright." ~ Bob Marley. I have nothing figured out, but for once in my life I'm not freaked out. "Get up stand up, stand up for your right, don't give up the fight." ~ Bob Marley