Somewhere up on "The Mountain", we prayed. Today Mz. P, Lil (another co-worker that lives off the reservation), and I held hands and prayed at precisely 12,12,12 on 12,12,12. Yep big "12" day in the universe. It was really cool. We did it in front of the Naga Shrine. Talk about different backgrounds between the three of us. A Pagan, a former Quaker, and a former Christian. What a combination. What a beautiful combination of love and pure energy bonded together for unity. Super awesome!
FYI, I will someday MAYBE review last night's happenings. Probably not. I am no longer in a role of "victim". What attracted a predator to my door is the tail end of who I used to be. The "Phoenix" within rose to the occasion. Last night's criminal case is now marked "HANDLED". Be your own hero they said. Protect yourself they said. Stand up for yourself they said. Well I LISTENED and I DID IT! Gotta thank Mz. P too, cause she lent strength by the bushels. Damn fine woman and great role mode for me. Heard a rumor I was dignified last night too. I'll take it! :D
Ah, big news, I deactivated my social networking account (rhymes with FACEBOOK). Silly me, I make this "announcement" to a select few of my nearest and dearest that I am closing shop after 5 years, 3500 pictures, and over 600 friends. I am at this point DONE with it all. So the application I use for music, Spotify, keeps logging me in and reactivating my account. It's like 5 days before I notice this. DERP! Then I have to make the cut again, only this time also let go of over 7000 songs. So, that was a LOT of letting go to do. Feels pretty good all in all. Once again, I didn't die or break from the loss. Imagine that. I now use my "alter ego" account, basically a "hippied out on steroids" version of my former glory. As in, mushier. My son is still using FB, and my daughter is using e-mail. So both bases are covered plus some.
Guess I will start planning my "trip home" to California for the Holidays. Still crossing my fingers for my daughter to come visit. Yet, no matter what I'm here for her whenever she can make it. She'll be on television on the Hallmark Channel on December 14. I am so excited. I will probably have to watch it via Youtube but we'll see. Hopefully my brother whose down in Orange County can make it. So proud of my kids. They are precious beyond measure. By Divine Grace my children will have lives filled with joy and wonder and laughter and peace and love and harmony.
Watched another tear jerker movie. I've been crying on and off. Feels pretty damn good. I know the rain here is washing away the deepest hurts and providing a cleansing. Soul scourge. Raw but functioning I think is how I'm feeling. Yet lighter. Definitely lighter! I'm still riding the happy train but with less "highs" and "lows" and a more steady onward momentum. I like balance. I like it a lot.
Time for bed...
Much to share from the previous weekend still. I have pictures too! Stay tuned for HUNG FAR LOW.
Top 5 things I am grateful for today:
World Clocks (indicating it has been 12/12/12 for 24 hours and we're still here, ha!)
Organic Popcorn
Bodhi (my ceramic elephant)
Music
Laughter
One Blessed Love ~
K
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