Dean Martin - Return To Me

Barenaked Ladies- Did I Say That Out Loud (Track 9)

Black Swans Surfing - Australia - UK News - 12-18-2013

Jack Johnson - My Little Girl (AOL Sessions)

A moment is all ~

I miss your large self right about now. Like nobody's business. Literally. Shocking I know. Damn. Damn. Damn. I'm fine just venting. Drowned my phone in a bucket of Murphy's Oil mixture scrubbing floors getting ready for my baby girl's visit. I'm all kinds of out of sorts and you are just the calm in my sea of silliness. Except when I'm sideways, but that's not exactly your fault at all, just the repercussions of being bashed in the face by love (my best friend/sister's saying after I met you). Please don't get weird on me again. I just needed an outlet and with you not being a fan of reading and my outlet being writing I figure it'll be awhile until this actually catches up with me and I'm really getting pretty good at ducking and weaving when it comes to you, except when I'm not. Ha! Guess this is part of the being friends part. I'd have messaged my sisters (they're like your bf, just well they are my bf), but they'd have messaged me back right about now and I don't really want to talk to anyone. I just want to tell someone. I'm scared. I'm scared I'm not enough. I'm scared she won't want me as her mom, for who I am now. I'm scared who I am now isn't enough. Having a moment is all.

Pictures are for the birds

Pictures are for the birds When Vea was in 1st grade he brought home his picture day form. I filled it out, included a check. I set out the most adorable (mom adorable) outfit for him, a super cute yellow plaid short sleeve button down collared top and his Osh Kosh overalls. I asked Vea if he was okay with the outfit and he said he was. So picture day comes and goes. I notice there's no pictures coming home with this kid of mine. I ask him if he has heard anything about the pictures. Vea says he hadn't. A few weeks later I ask him again. Still nothing he says. I call the school at that point to find out why it's taking two months for school pictures. The school informs me that pictures were handed back a month previously. I ask about Vea's pictures. They check and inform me that he didn't turn in a picture order form. I ask how that can be. I sent him to school with the order form and the check. Heck, I had ordered the biggest package. So now what I ask? The school informs me that there is a picture make up day in 2 days. Whew, okay, so we'll try this again. When Vea gets home from school I tell him what's up. I've talked to the school, he didn't turn in his form/check and make up day is in 2 days. What in the world happened to the form/check and why didn't he turn it in and why had I been waiting and asking him this whole time for something he knew wasn't going to happen. This kid of mine, WOW. I have him sitting down in the living room and it's kind of a big deal to find out what the heck is happening here. Then the story unfolds, Vea tells his magnificent tale. The day of the pictures Vea's holding the form in his hands. He's walking to school just minding his own business. Just focused on getting to school and turning in his picture form because he knows how important it is to me. He's making sure he doesn't get dirty because his outfit needs to stay nice. Then, suddenly, the sky turns dark and grey, it's like the heaven's opened up, there was wind and thunder and then, BIRDS, lots of birds flying around from the sky. They were flying towards Vea, right at him. Then one bird flew directly at him and grabbed the form right out of his hand. The bird was too fast for him and he knew I would be upset about the picture form. He was sure I wouldn't believe him because he could hardly believe it himself. He was in shock he said. He was scared he said. He just tried to get through the rest of the day at school. He wanted to tell me but he said everyday he would look for the bird hoping he could find the form so he could turn it in on picture make-up day and get new pictures. REALLY? Again, WOW. This kid of mine, I realized he was either going to win a Noble Prize for some amazing work of literature that would inspire people or head up a criminal organization. Remember this kid was in 1st grade. Just 6 years old. I figured I had to really shake things up to get to the truth. So I proceeded to take off his bedroom door, remove all video games, leaving only books in his room. I figured if I turned his room into a prison cell and illustrated what prison would look like with helpful tidbits thrown in about a cellmate named,"Bubba" he would fold and just tell me what had happened. Ha, boy was I ever wrong. My until recently Tongan only speaking child became enthralled with books, reading Harry Potter and The Wheel of Time. Yes, at 6 years old. (This book part is important for a later Vea story because of his keen intelligence and ability to not only read at that age, read in English, and read at that level). So what to do? This went on for a few weeks. Vea holding firm to his story while reading more stories (see how that didn't work?). Me, I'm at a loss for what to do, no bedroom door, stories about Bubba, and no video games didn't shake this kid up, NOT AT ALL. So, I did what any other self-respecting mother would do. I got on my hands and knees, in tears and begged and bribed my 6 year old to tell me the truth. Vea put his hand on the side of my face and said,"Mommy, I have a surprise for you (still sounded like SURPISE with his thick Tongan accent." He pulled the re-take pictures out of his back-pack. There they were and he had changed his outfit a little, like modified it completely. In a size too small aloha shirt with a too small sweater barely stretched over it and sandals with white socks on looking every bit the Tongan kid he was I got my Vea pictures all right. His crooked little smile showing off the teeth he had just lost. Priceless. Precious. Perfect. I handed over the video games, I put the door back on. I realized something about my little prince, he would rather lie to me then tell me a truth he thought would hurt my feelings. We had a long discussion about telling the truth that day. I promised as long as he told me the truth about anything he wouldn't get in trouble and if I was sad about a truth I would be okay. That's what mom's do, we manage to be okay. We hear things we don't like but we always love, no matter what. Sure there would be consequences for the actions, righting a wrong etc. but not punishment for truth telling. To this day, that kid has never again lied to me. He's used creative wording to answer my questions, but never again lied. Oh and I never asked him to wear overalls again. Ever. — with Tiare Gonzales.

Nahko and Medicine For The People - Black As Night

The XX - Islands

Sarah Kay & Phil Kaye "When Love Arrives"

Barenaked Ladies- Did I Say That Out Loud (Track 9)

Imagine Dragons - Demons (Official)

Everly - Bethany Joy Lenz - Stars

RISK IT- Nahko & Medicine For The People [LIVE]

The Cranberries - Dreams (Live in Paris - 1999)

Blue October - Not Broken Anymore

Muse - Madness

"Beautiful Tree" - Rain Perry - LIFE UNEXPECTED theme song

Te Vaka- Lovely World

A Day of Giving Thanks ~

There were times when I couldn't remember to breathe moments when I didn't believe in... anything Buddha showed me compassion Christ showed me forgiveness Krishna showed me love God showed me Divinity and yet... that wasn't enough My friends loved me when I couldn't love myself My children loved me, when I had given up My heart found love when I thought I was too broken Life isn't about figuring anything out, it's about surrender Giving oneself over completely to the unknown, to the impossible In my darkest hour, I found I had the power, the power to love In that, I have found the reason to hope: For a Miracle For that, I am giving thanks, today. Thank you.

Magic of Memories ~

Lani and Musette --- funny how my memory is coming back. In bits, in blinding migraine, bring me to my knees bits, but, yeah, where there is love there are GREAT miracles. Only 3 math tutors, 1 teacher, 1 assistant teacher, love and support from friends and children (not much of a village there, ha ha) to accomplish this, and yet for me it is the beginning of something so much more. THANK YOU for not giving up on me when I threw in the towel so long ago on myself. No matter what, this is SOMETHING and that's more than I've had in a very long time (longer than I can remember, ha ha). Okay, enough mushy sappy stuff for the night. Time for otter pops, kettle corn, and a nice movie (thinking The Croods again, it's MAGICAL! ) I love love LOVE yous to infinity and BEYOND!

HOPE

Well, having a missionary son and a lot of incentive helps! You know not being comfortably numb and being open to well being open has quite literally (love the pun and reference, kudos me, lol) opened up some doors. My son's love, his heart, and my daughter(s), now plural I have just realized on this most difficult of times is the real key. At the end of it all, even writing again, even loving again, it stems from being open, open to life and sharing what really matters: Our hearts. After all our years of sharing and knowing Lani , this was my regret, not being able to share the joy because the pain was all I knew in those moments. With the love of my children as the catalyst, even the pain doesn't overshadow the love. I thought I would curl up and just, well, do what I do on Holidays and yet, something miraculous happened. A miracle. I learned to love again. I won't be Fiji bound this year but I have something far greater: Hope.

A Thanksgiving to Remember

Here is your weekly Vea story Tiare A Thanksgiving to Remember: Fetu'ufuka 'Alisi Peaua was born on November 21, 1995. Thanksgiving in 1995 was on Thursday, November 23. I brought my 2 day old baby girl to my in-laws house for a family Thanksgiving. Vea (your future hubby) was 21 months old at the time. Fuka was bundled and fed and enclosed on one of the couches in the living room. She had a barrier between her and the floor the Great Wall of China would have envied. Needless to say that she was safely tucked into a cocoon of warmth and safety. After checking on her for the umpteenth time I felt safe to use the restroom. I let others, the large family at home know I was going to vacate the living room and was assured (understandably) I was OK to do so. Check, clear, covered. Nothing was going to happen in such a short amount of time with all bases covered. What happened next you ask? I returned in record time to the place I had left my new bundle of joy (joy I did not know two days previously was going to be a girl btw, but that's another story). This bundle I had left on the couch was wrapped in only one truly obviously identifiable item, a pink blanket (the hospital felt it would be a disservice to allow me to leave without something marking her as a girl since everything I brought was for another boy... sorry getting sidetracked). So I return to the spot I had recently vacated with my little Star Child only to discover it EMPTY! There was absolutely NO sign of my daughter, ANYWHERE. The wall of china was still intact, but no baby. I ran into the kitchen where mayhem had erupted. Dube, our family dog had just finished off the entire turkey, a 30 lb + turkey to be precise. There was yelling, and absolute chaos reigning. I am trying to get in a word because my baby is MISSING. No one heard me. My voice, drowned out by the ensuing realization that there would be no turkey because Dube (my contribution before a grandson and grand-daughter) had inhaled my mother in-laws efforts in one quick mouthful. Dube, stomach bulging, didn't look the least sick for the record, in fact he was grinning from ear to ear (did you know Dube was exactly to the date one year older than Vea?). Oops, sidetracked again. In this mayhem I am now searching frantically EVERYWHERE for my BABY! I check every bedroom, every nook and cranny. WHERE OH WHERE COULD MY BABY BE??? Then I see him, Vea. He's sitting in the corner of the living room and looking at the floor, swinging his legs, merrily, smiling, and that's when it hit me, he looked REALLY happy. Proud of himself. Like he had just accomplished something. Something BIG. When Vea was getting close to two it meant only ONE THING: WATCH OUT. He was up to SOMETHING. That look meant: He was REALLY smug and VERY pleased with himself for something REALLY smart that he'd done. By really smart, he'd outwitted, outthunk, and outdone an adult in his life. Remember this man of yours was not even 2 then! I approached him cautiously, knowing that I had to proceed with caution. You see, even at 21 months old, I knew something about Vea, he was already smarter then most adults I knew. My biggest problem was communicating with him. Vea only spoke Tongan. While I knew enough to run if it looked like I might end up as the main course on the table, he out spoke my Tongan by like a light year and then some. Using my broken Tongan I asked him if he knew where the baby was. He looked up at that moment and looked me directly in the eyes and shrugged his shoulders. He then proceeded to look back down and grin. That grin meant only ONE THING: UH OH, "HOUSTON YOU HAVE A PROBLEM!" I pleaded, I cried, I rallied for back up, but the turkey being (quickly) digested in the belly of Dube was the only known of concern at the time. Don't get me wrong, it's not like they didn't care, they just did not HEAR me over the commotion. I squared my shoulders and decided to plead, to bargain with God and my little prince to give me a sign, ANY sign on the location of my baby. My prayers were answered. Vea looked down with those enormous dark eyes and I followed the direction right down towards the coffee table and that's when I saw pink. I SAW PINK! I saw pink UNDERNEATH the coffee table. A 3 tier, 80's coffee table. Underneath the lowest tier with what did not seem like more than a few inches from the carpet I saw a swatch of pink, baby pink, baby girl pink. I pulled gently on the blanket and there on the pink blanket a tiny little hand emerged. I tugged again and an arm. I continued for what seemed like hours. Finally I had my baby girl. I hadn't imagined her or lost her. She was alive! I sank to my knees, holding her to me. Crying. Vea came up to me then from his corner perch. He placed a hand on my shoulder, one hand on her head, and said in Tongan, "That is not a brother." "You said brother, not sister." I explained in the best way I could she was a surprise. He said, that no, hiding her and finding her, that was a "SURPISE" he yelled (in broken English). Too smart, too smart. Needless to say after that, we kept one eye on the baby, and one eye on the turkey and one person on Vea. I hope this makes you laugh, makes you smile, and mostly fills your heart with the silliness that is our sweet Vea. His stories will keep us strong for the next two years. His laughter will keep us warm. I love you sweet one. Thank you for the blessing that is you in his heart and filling him with love and warmth this first Thanksgiving away. 'Ofa 'atu - K — with Tiare Gonzales.

meet me far l ANAT

Brandi Carlile - Before It Breaks

That time of the year ~

Here I am again, back at this place, this time where it is the hardest Families together, being grateful to share this holiday season and yet... My babies, they are not here, still far away, still separated One following his dreams, the other, tucked away until she can escape How I long for her final break... and how my heart breaks... again Can it ever mend, will it happen in this space and time? For what I long for to finally become mine?

Where you belong - Kari Kimmel (Lyrics) (The Fosters Theme Song)

Andy Shauf "You Remind Me" - www.streamingcafe.net

Joshua Radin - Cross That Line

Beautiful Day- Joshua Radin

Daughter, Loudon Wainwright III

Maisey Rika & JJ Rika - Untouchable (Live) Matariki

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Maisey Rika - "Nia" live in Auckland

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Maisey Rika - Sink or Swim

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Maisey Rika - Ladeda Day

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te-vaka tamahana

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The Silent Awakening

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Patty Griffin - I Don't Ever Give Up

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Dear Cupid ~

Dear Cupid, We need to talk. First off the arrow HURTS! The hole in my butt cheek has not healed. I can not afford medical care so would you please stop shooting me in the ass. Secondly, and secondly means this: The first part is NOTHING compared to what you have done to my HEART! Cupid, I am a peaceful person. I believe in a gentle approach to things. HOWEVER, I was perfectly happy before you came along. I had things figured out. A life plan, goals, purpose, a really clear direction. Now I am constantly losing things, like my keys, the sun, and the moon. I forget things (do not comment here), like eating and breathing. I wasn't trying to lose weight and now I have been stricken with a syndrome called Noassatall. Now let's talk about the sleepless nights. The dreams. The dreams are heart wrenching and frequently arousing. You're a pervert. My sleep is sacred! Benedryl has become my new best friend (yes, that's your replacement you little fucker). LOVE TOURETTES, REALLY? I can't drink alcohol in public places anymore because every time I open my mouth I talk about all the love in my heart. Why did you fuck with the booze Cupid? The current list of incidents are longer than the arrow you shot me with you little shit. Public Humiliation? Check! In addition to the listed and hinted at grievances I have also had a nasty bout of vertigo. My world is literally sideways. Very few things upset me Cupid. You are right up there with people who put gum under chairs and tables (WHO DOES THAT?). You fucked with my happy place. We are no longer friends. If you touch me again I will cut you. Yours untruly, unxunounxuno P.S. I am SO telling Santa how naughty you are so don't even think of trying to get in at the Elf factory.

Everybody Plays The Fool - The Main Ingredient (1972)

http://www.youtube.com/v/dXGa__ECvnM?version=3&autohide=1&autoplay=1&attribution_tag=vz4jF3CE4pkKjEgt3ZxDcA&showinfo=1&autohide=1&feature=share

Mumford and Sons - Sigh No More

http://www.youtube.com/v/p7TrU4_-JTY?version=3&autohide=1&feature=share&autoplay=1&autohide=1&attribution_tag=eztX5ab-Hccf2aa8czb12w&showinfo=1

Paloma Faith - Upside Down

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Etana - People Talk

http://www.youtube.com/v/IkvrYINale4?version=3&autohide=1&autohide=1&feature=share&showinfo=1&autoplay=1&attribution_tag=4Z1GRimn9O3P-0FVnmuXLg

Harvey Milk

"Go after her. Fuck, don’t sit there and wait for her to call, go after her because that’s what you should do if you love someone, don’t wait for them to give you a sign cause it might never come, don’t let people happen to you, don’t let me happen to you, or her, she’s not a fucking television show or tornado. There are people I might have loved had they gotten on the airplane or run down the street after me or called me up drunk at four in the morning because they need to tell me right now and because they cannot regret this and I always thought I’d be the only one doing crazy things for people who would never give enough of a fuck to do it back or to act like idiots or be entirely vulnerable and honest and making someone fall in love with you is easy and flying 3000 miles on four days notice because you can’t just sit there and do nothing and breathe into telephones is not everyone’s idea of love but it is the way I can recognize it because that is what I do. Go scream it and be with her in meaningful ways because that is beautiful and that is generous and that is what loving someone is, that is raw and that is unguarded, and that is all that is worth anything, really". ~ Harvey Milk

Alexi Murdoch - Breathe

http://www.youtube.com/v/l_naIQOVUaM?autohide=1&version=3&attribution_tag=3dvP1B3N0IxKZtWf4daFbw&feature=share&autoplay=1&autohide=1&showinfo=1

Alexi Murdoch - Shine

http://www.youtube.com/v/AP36oIfnsyk?version=3&autohide=1&autohide=1&showinfo=1&autoplay=1&feature=share&attribution_tag=MS_rNBevteYjoJ7ia2Cgvw

Ani DiFranco "Virtue"

http://www.youtube.com/v/yqlR4kRdc9o?autohide=1&version=3&attribution_tag=v6s1RDVYOSFlFo3aIAlCWQ&autohide=1&showinfo=1&feature=share&autoplay=1

Strange Days - Reed Foehl

http://www.youtube.com/v/v-KsfbkFemM?version=3&autohide=1&autohide=1&feature=share&autoplay=1&showinfo=1&attribution_tag=oZZ2ANi-3ZoeSpkTbWZfkA

"Gentle Arms of Eden", by Dave Carter and Tracy Grammer

http://www.youtube.com/v/bAGMATHlSK4?autohide=1&version=3&showinfo=1&attribution_tag=gsAT08qyDs3W_t2ejpT4dA&autohide=1&feature=share&autoplay=1

Rise Again - Official Video - Shaggy, Sean Paul/Kingston, Tessanne Chin,...

http://www.youtube.com/v/YNv2HeKrkRU?autohide=1&version=3&attribution_tag=Yu0fg__fQ4aV7cg1r_Wjdw&autohide=1&showinfo=1&feature=share&autoplay=1

Deeply does it flow ~

Through me, In me, Around me...it flows ~ Resisting, Persisting, Desisting - Gentle, turbulent, wild, and free - Stormy, dark, vibrant, and calm - Thunder, lightening, power, and might - Foamy, blue, green, and blackest night - Cold, warm, salty, and clear - Majestic, roaring, loving, and kind - Fathomless, unyielding, unpredictable, and unforgiving - Purifying, enchanting, enlightening, and enriching - Consuming, glorious, moving, and beautiful - Loving, greedy, jealous, and proud - Quiet, fun, caressing, and loud - Driven, purposeful, angry, and judging - Divine, Graceful, Magnificent, and Heavenly - Through me, In me, Around me...it flows ~

Lauryn Hill-Just Like The Water

http://www.youtube.com/v/9b4JjzdWmuw?version=3&autohide=1&showinfo=1&autohide=1&autoplay=1&feature=share&attribution_tag=KBEd2daqcvOTPub9Fln6Sg

Anuhea "Right Love, Wrong Time"

http://www.youtube.com/v/6VXJtyb5D_Q?autohide=1&version=3&attribution_tag=3SJbJ7alZGQ7hU8heNeUnw&autoplay=1&feature=share&showinfo=1&autohide=1

Jackson Browne - Oh, My Love

http://www.youtube.com/v/k3JqkRA405U?version=3&autohide=1&autohide=1&showinfo=1&autoplay=1&feature=share&attribution_tag=3Mjt6NA_3uNQOQAhwoe3Ww

Puscifer - Monsoons

http://www.youtube.com/v/VNFQAI2RhYk?autohide=1&version=3&autoplay=1&attribution_tag=iG2JMQ3odnDv_NB9wm6FIw&autohide=1&feature=share&showinfo=1

I only know I love you ~

I only know I love you when I awake I only know I love you when I sleep I only know I love you when the sun is shining and the moon burns bright I only know I love you when a child laughs a bird sings a leaf rustles a blade of grass grows I only know I love you when I pack to leave but stay I sit in abject misery and cry all day I only know I love you when I breathe ~

Wookiefoot "Let Yourself Go" Shangri La 9-8-2012

http://www.youtube.com/v/1wOYmP_syqs?version=3&autohide=1&feature=share&autoplay=1&autohide=1&attribution_tag=_Jev9-taDKS8xA2slEHRFg&showinfo=1

Passenger - Life's For The Living

http://www.youtube.com/v/Nl2GwLtMX7s?version=3&autohide=1&autohide=1&feature=share&autoplay=1&showinfo=1&attribution_tag=1hOzS41a1BSBaY3Qgd40TA

Passenger: I See Love

http://www.youtube.com/v/SfpKLd3gmyg?version=3&autohide=1&showinfo=1&autoplay=1&attribution_tag=_1YAXxgXImQ6pjbKLc4mrg&feature=share&autohide=1

I love you an amazing amount ~

Yes. I do.

Sara Bareilles - Breathe Again with lyrics

http://www.youtube.com/v/v2yPU5WPwZs?version=3&autohide=1&feature=share&autoplay=1&autohide=1&attribution_tag=hCqrPv_OYFpE3Vu_LHJuow&showinfo=1

Emeli Sande - Hope

http://www.youtube.com/v/YpMjZIg_sw4?autohide=1&version=3&attribution_tag=xaUbLoe5xs1Ih4Bifxkncw&showinfo=1&autohide=1&autoplay=1&feature=share

DONNA DE LORY Praying For Love

http://www.youtube.com/v/IJav8Jj4Ayk?version=3&autohide=1&showinfo=1&autohide=1&autoplay=1&feature=share&attribution_tag=A5ZVFdOPumR8MchVyuFX4w

Anuhea "Right Love, Wrong Time"

http://www.youtube.com/v/6VXJtyb5D_Q?version=3&autohide=1&showinfo=1&feature=share&autohide=1&autoplay=1&attribution_tag=6p4NRsaKiw7NQ1C_rCHIuw

Learning To Breathe - Switchfoot

http://www.youtube.com/v/vVlnHT8OkQQ?version=3&autohide=1&autohide=1&showinfo=1&feature=share&autoplay=1&attribution_tag=K_v4_S5o7na77_xwN4neIw

Pink Bubbles ~

In a sphere of possibility I float up endlessly A riot of cotton candy dreams nothing is what it seems Globes of reality nothing is what it seems Princess giggles and tinkling laughter captured Endless parades of fairytales and pixie sprinkles Cupcakes and candles and puppy dog kisses Brave knights slaying dragons and protecting kingdoms Unicorns and blue kitties, the realms multiply and expand Pop, and another world appears from the magic of the gateway One moment, one touch and dreams are carried to the heavens Seas of possibilities created and blown to the wind Howling at the moon, bathing in the sun, falling in love Turtle King and an island paradise, children playing in the sand A wish upon a Shooting Star, a child's arms hugging my heart Eden, a place where miracles are born ~

this too shall pass.mov

http://www.youtube.com/v/a5rjrY8emVc?version=3&autohide=1&autoplay=1&attribution_tag=WGcP-r3YcYWbTvgm4YBNbQ&showinfo=1&feature=share&autohide=1

Steve Poltz 'Giving Thanks' in Ramona, CA

http://www.youtube.com/v/1LvRlGvWgBg?version=3&autohide=1&autohide=1&feature=share&autoplay=1&attribution_tag=hdyc7QcA-nfkI1hX-JyFMA&showinfo=1

Ukulele Anthem - Amanda Palmer (Studio Version)

http://www.youtube.com/v/OZaR_4us6Ec?version=3&autohide=1&feature=share&autoplay=1&autohide=1&showinfo=1&attribution_tag=t1A37edCquR_9L7j855yyg

LORDE - Royals

gandhi drove a cab

zuzu's petals ( a bipolar love song).mov

Stuart Davis - Swim

Tool - Parabola

Woman Waiting to Happen Patrice Pike

Thank YOU!

Vake, Thank you. Thank you for setting me free. Thank you for truly freeing me. Thank you for all of the lessons. Thank you for being YOU. Unequivocally YOU. Thank YOU. Thank you for participating in the creation of our children. It is their time to live their lives. It's time to let go and live ours. I celebrate this life. I thank you for showing me the beauty. Without you I may not know the revelation, the miracle that IS life. The NOW, the PRESENT moment. I am NOT afraid. I am protected by THE MOST HIGH ONE (Etana). Amen. Amen. and AMEN!

Little Bit of Love - John Cruz feat. Jack Johnson & Friends

Van Morrison: Brand New Day (Unplugged In The Studio)

On this Journey- David Kai

Ani DiFranco - Joyful Girl (Live '99)

Shake the Dust ~

SHAKE THE DUST by Anis Mojgani This is for the fat girls. This is for the little brothers. This is for the schoolyard wimps and for the childhood bullies that tormented them. For the former prom queen and for the milk crate ballplayers. For the nighttime cereal eaters and for the retired elderly Wal-Mart store front door greeters. Shake the dust. This is for the benches and the people sitting upon them. For the bus drivers driving a million broken hymns. For the men who have to hold down three jobs simply to hold up their children for the night schoolers and for the midnight bike riders trying to fly. Shake the dust. For the 2-year-olds who cannot be understood because they speak half-English and half-God. Shake the dust. For the boys with the beautiful sisters. Shake the dust. For the girls with the brothers who are going crazy, for those gym class wallflowers, for the 12-year-olds afraid of taking public showers. For the kid who’s always late to class because he forgets the combination to his locker, for the girl who loves somebody else. Shake the dust. This is for the hard men who want love but know that it won’t come. For the ones who are forgotten. The ones the amendments do not stand up for. For the ones who are told to speak only when you are spoken to and then are never spoken to. Speak every time you stand, so you do not forget yourself. Do not let a moment go by that doesn’t remind you that your heart beats thousands of times every day and that there are enough gallons of blood to make every one of us oceans. Do not settle for letting these waves settle and for the dust to collect in your veins. This is for the celibate pedophile who keeps on struggling. For the poetry teachers and for the people who go on vacations alone. For the sweat that drips off of Mick Jagger’s singing lips. For the shaking skirt on Tina Turner’s shaking hips. For the heavens and for the hells through which Tina has lived. This is for the tired and for the dreamers. For the families that will never be like the Cleavers, with perfectly made dinners and sons like Wally and the Beaver. This is for the bigots, for the sexists, for the killers, for the big house pen-sentenced cats becoming redeemers, and for the springtime that always seems to know to show up after every one of our winters. This is for you. Make sure that by the time the fisherman returns you are gone. Because just like the days, I burn at both ends and every time I write, every time I open my eyes, I am cutting out parts of myself just to give them to you. So shake the dust. And take me with you when you do. For none of this has ever been for me. All that pushes and pulls, it pushes for you. So grab this world by its clothespins, and shake it out again and again. And hop on top and take it for a spin. And when you hop off, shake it again. For this is yours. Make these words worth it. Make this not just another poem that I write. Not just another poem like just another night, that sits heavy above us all. Walk into it, breath it in. Let it crawl though the halls of your arms, like the millions of years of millions of poets coursing like blood, pumping and pushing, making you live, shaking the dust. So when the world knocks at your door, clutch the knob tightly and open on up. And run forward. Run forward as fast and as far as you must. Run into its widespread greeting arms with your hands outstretched before you, fingertips trembling though they may be.

A Slice of Heaven ~

There is finally a place I love. A place by the sea. A place where there is no him and only a me. A place I am safe. A place I am free.

Joshua Radin - underwater

Donovan - Sunshine Superman

Zac Brown Band - Where The Boat Leaves From

All At Once (Acoustic) - Jack Johnson

Jack Johnson - Buddha

Matthew Wilder - Nobody's Gunna Break My Stride

Stuart Davis, Some Love

Falling into place ~

Top 10 things I am DIVINELY GRATEFUL for:
Turtles
Shooting Stars
Lights
Souls
Spirits
Synchronicity
Purification
Rhada
Children
Love

Twin Flames ~

http://tsl.org/2009/08/soul-mates-and-twin-flames-q-a-with-elizabeth-clare-prophet/

Mantra ~

I AM a being of violet fire!
I AM the purity God desires!

Beastie Boys - Gratitude

John Butler Trio - Somethings Gotta Give (Live @ Max Sess.)

Oprah Winfrey talks with Thich Nhat Hanh Excerpt - Powerful

Sweet Mama Dog Interacting with a Beautiful Child with Down Syndrome Jim...

Luciano ft. Morgan Heritage - Love Will Make It

Narwhals

Pete Townshend - Let My Love Open The Door (Lyrics in description)

Phish - Free

Eye to eye - A Waterlust short about swimming with friends

Zac Brown Band - Island Song W/Lyrics

Free - Hope Murphy

Hope ft. Jason Mraz - Love Love Love [Official Video]

Seals & Crofts - Love conquers all

Whole ~ I am Whole ~ Complete ~ I am Complete

By God's Grace I am whole.
By God's Grace I am complete.
By God's Grace, I AM.

Thank you Goddess.
Thank you God.

My life is perfect. My life is complete. My life is whole.

I am your daughter. I am your open and willing vessel.

I love you.

P.S. Children of mine. You are whole, you are complete, you are loved. YOU ARE LOVE ~ Mom

LIVE Heaven Acoustic version

Grateful ~

I am grateful for...
Children
Laughter
Second Chances
Blessings
Forgiveness
Love
God
Divinity
Discernment
Peace
Kindness
Sharing
Hugs
Friendship
Opportunity
Lessons
Unity
Light
Prayer
Oceans

Lenka - Nothing Here But Love

Yoga Mat - Stic Man

What am I chanting?

Mantra: Just to Know You

• Complete Mantra:
  Just to know you
  Just to live inside your grace
  Just to feel you
  In my heart, at this time, in this place
  
  
  There is peace in every breath
  As my mind dwells on your name
  Finding peace, peace within
  Treasure of bliss, never ends
  
  
  Gurmukhi: Saas Saas man naam Man naam samaarai. Eho bisaraam nid paa-ee
  Translation: With each and every breath my mind remembers the Naam, the Name of the Lord.
  In this way it finds the treasure of bliss.
• Language: English and Gurmukhi
  Source: Gurmukhi lyrics from the writings of Guru Arjan, the fifth Guru of the Sikhs
  Author: Guru Arjan, Peter Kater, Snatam Kaur

Patty Griffin - I Don't Ever Give Up

Are you prepared? Yes!

God only gives you what you're prepared for. It's not a test. It's NEVER a test. It's a CHOICE. "There are no mistakes, only lessons in love", is a quote I recently saw. How wonderful is that? I absolutely resonate with that. Going off to a new big adventure. This one is a biggie in my life so far. I have experienced enough sadness and suffering to have gained some wisdom. This is an opportunity for spiritual growth.


Goddess, GOD
Amma I am  devoted
Krishna I am devoted

To ALL of the names of the GODDESS. To ALL of the name of GOD. I am your devoted, pure daughter.

THANK YOU FOR THE RECENT JOY IN HOLLY'S LIFE. Love IS. SHE IS. THEY ARE. Beautiful Blessings. Blessed Be in Love and in Light ~


Top 5 thing I am GRATEFUL for today:
Confirmation
Hibernation
Revelation
Inspiration
Salvation
Tribulation

P.S. Soooooooooooooo looking forward to seeing you BOTH!!! I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVVVVVVVVVVEEEEEEEEEEEEE YOU. Mom

BOB MARLEY THREE LITTLE BIRDS

"Dream In Red" , original song, inspired by "Into the Wild", Jon Krakauer

Stuart Davis - Drown [with lyrics]

Tina Malia & Kenny Loggins - "Walking Home"

Tina Malia - Wild Horses

In Sunlight by Tina Malia

Naughty Boy - Wonder ft. Emeli Sandé

Emeli Sande - Where I Sleep

Emeli Sandé - My Kind of Love

Attraction perform their stunning shadow act - Week 1 Auditions | Britai...

The Silent Awakening

Baby elephant swim

Owl City - Shooting Star

MaMuse - Great Big World

A Mother's Journey ~

Letting go of the fear, throwing the box of fear out of my universe, my world. I am headed for the greatest experience chalked full of love and the reunion my heart has longed for. Both babies and I together again in a mere few weeks. Finances - will work out. Work - is happening. I am HERE and READY to make this happen. There is no stopping this mom going to her babies. Seeing her baby boy graduate. Holding her children close. Seeing her darling daughter again. So much happiness and joy and a few mere obstacles. I'm a hurdler of life's bumps, gold medal level. Bring it on baby, I've got my running shoes dusted off. If I need to start running to Utah to make this happen so be it. I'm on my way to hold in my arms the only two beings my soul longs for. That is my reality. That is my truth. LOVE and my LOVE(S) are waiting for me. I shall not fail them. I can not for God is in the driver's seat and I am doing what is required to be a worthy passenger of the express train to completion. Full circle. Fear is no longer dictating my direction. I give it to God.

Goddess, God
I thank you for leading me on this journey to a life full of wonder and joy and beauty unlike anything I could have envisioned. My heart alights with so much gratitude and sheer delight I am here, RIGHT NOW, to feel and experience and witness the miracle that is life, that is creation. Thank you for my time here.  Thank you for time. Thank you for all of the trails and tribulations that have molded me into the vessel for your Grace to fill and the essence of Love to guide my soul back into your Divine Embrace.  Your Devoted Daughter

Top 10 things I am GRATEFUL for today:
Miracles
Prayer
Retribution
Strength
Promise
Grace
God
Yoga
Vision
Devotion

P.S. Soon you shall both be in my embrace. The embrace of a mother holding her two most cherished heart's delights. To say I am "looking forward to it" is a gross understatement. To say I am every waking moment closer to Nirvana and the happiest moment of my life to date is closer to my personal truth. Now I shall rest to work to strengthen my body and mind and spirit to be the best I can be and give you the best I can be to date. I am a work in progress, know I am only partially at my full potential yet light years from the broken dying being that was. This is all new, I am your mother, yet a different mother than you have had, and more of the one you each deserve. I am focused on our collective futures and offer everything I am to each of you. Right now, who I am is so much more than who I was, except one thing has never changed. I absolutely fucking adore you two and every cent, every hour, every breath contributed to bettering myself and changing old behaviors and thoughts and eliminating my dis-ease expressing illness riddled body of toxicity I dedicate to you both. You gave me the reason, God gave me the strength. I write this as your mother, as a woman, and as someone who came so close to checking out and the person who now plans to stand before you with the strength of the Almighty at my back. For all that I am and all I will ever be I thank you both for never losing sight that miracles come to those who refuse to give in.  I had two angels that reminded me to keep on going, and I didn't have the heart to let them down. Thank you my angels, my heart, and my soul's eternal familial companions, my son and my daughter. Loving you in all lifetimes ~ Mom

Mario Biondi - A Handful of Soul (love Miriam Aida's version)

The New Rebelution and Dustin Thomas "Oceans Away"

Avasa and Matty Love - "Sister, Brother"

Billy Currington Performs "Let Me Down Easy" (iHeartRadio Live Series)

Ben Taylor : Island

Mother's Day Thanks and Gratitude ~

Things didn't work out as planned, but do they ever? Something better is on the horizon of that I am sure. Besides even grave disappointment is better at the beach! 

Thank you Goddess and God for my life and the lives of my children. Thank you for Creation. Thank you for LOVE ~ Thank you, Your Daughter

Top 20 things I am GRATEFUL for today:

Children

Yoga

Meditation

Bodhi

Sophia

Sir Thomas Sean

Larry

Cooper

Friends

Sisters

Mothers

Joy

Fun

Root Beer Floats

Thai Food

Nepal

Om

Goddesses

Prayer

Natu

P.S. Thank you both for being my children. I adore you. Mom

An Open Letter To Moms from Kid President

Thank you LLKK for sharing this video ~

Love Of My Life - Carly Simon

Shaggy - Keepin' it real with lyrics

Nahko (Medicine for the People)

Day to day ~

Day to day I move along
Forwards, Backwards
A fluid movement, a song
Never stopping, no regrets
Giving thanks, Appreciation
Paying off my debts
One day at a time ~

Freedom is a shift in perception.
I am free ~

Goddess, God
Thank you for answering all of my prayers.
I am your vessel.
I am open and willing.
I am protected and loved.
I am your daughter and I thank you.

Top 20 things I am GRATEFUL for today (and a few extra):
Freedom
Friends
Children
Kindness
Goals
Direction
Possibilities
Signs
Intuition
Gratitude
Epic (the word)
Blessings
Corn
Justice
Generosity
Skateboards
Confidence
Knowledge
Science
Divinity

P.S. Oh children, Loving you, oh how I am loving you ~ Mom

George Harrison- Pisces Fish

Wave of Life ~

My son coming to visit is foremost on my mind. Motivation: His graduation, His mission, His life.

My daughter will come to me, someday, someway and that is foremost on my mind. Motivation: Her graduation, Her mission, Her life.

I am "living" now and that is foremost on my mind. Motivation: My graduation, My mission, My life.

What other motivation do I need? This is the first time in my life there are people surrounding me in all ways that have love for me and my life. A genuine desire to see my succeed. I don't want to let anyone down, mainly, myself. Confidence building one day at a time. Let's just see where I ride the wave of life ~

Goddess, God
THANK YOU FOR ALL I HAVE BEEN GIVEN
Your Daughter

Top 5 Things I am GRATEFUL for today:
Life
Breath
Hugs
Surf
Intrigue

P.S. I love you MORE! Mom

Swimming in Opportunity ~

Tis late. Off of work. Busting my @$$... FEELS WONDERFUL! I LOVE IT! NO COMPLAINTS...
I have ZERO idea how ANYTHING is going to actually get accomplished in my little world yet it will. This much I do know now. Everything WILL work out. Amazing. So I am not stressing or "planning" tomorrow today. I am finishing out this night constructively and kindly. For the record, I am on day 8 of the captains log! That's another project all together. ha Ha HA ~

I DOVE INTO THE OCEAN TODAY. It was amazing and I wasn't afraid. In fact I was more afraid to walk away and not do it. Because of what I was wearing and getting a car seat wet and blah blah blah. Right? Just a bunch of dumb excuses strung together so you give up by sheer virtue of being bored into submission listening to all that gibberish. I've OVER it. I AM SO OVER IT. Who am I living this life for this time around??? GOD, THAT'S "WHO". I am LIVING. I am LOVING. I am ME ~

Goddess, God
He's out there. I felt it. This time, it was close, REALLY close. OPEN AND WILLING. I am. I am. I am.
Turtle's Mom. Turtle's Dad. I am. I am. I am. Thank you for all of the blessings. The love, the joy, the challenges, the craziness, the perfection that is life. I LOVE YOU, I THANK YOU.
Your Daughter ~

Top 5 things I am GRATEFUL for today:
Theresa
The "family"
Cooper
Raw Oysters
Turtles

Magical Miracles ~

So much has transpired. So much of a new journey with all the "lessons" rolled into an everyday application of what I have learned. Week one is officially over and here I go. I have set a precedent for this new life of mine. Lots of learning lessons and as with all learning lessons and transitions there is a learning curve. I give myself a B ++++. Today is my Monday and already it is better. I worshiped God at the Ocean, my church.

Just in case I have missed a prayer or not been thankful and GRATEFUL enough here are my top 50:
Oceans
Waves
Water
Lakes
Rivers
Sunshine
Sea Otters
Seals
Crows
Seagulls
Salt
Sand
Driftwood
Camping
Fires
Calm
Peace
Strength
Determination
Fortitude
Courage
Choices
Lessons
Consideration
Generosity
Spirit
Gentleness
Boundaries
Clarification
Goddesses
DIVINITY
GOD
Christ
The Buddha
Krishna
Ganesha
Kali
The Naga
My Son
My Daughter
Laughter
Joy
Meditation
Openness
Willingness
LIFE
Yoga
Vision
Beauty
LOVE

Goddess, GOD
Thank you for answering ALL of my prayers.
May I continue to be your vessel in all things.
May I proceed with an open heart and speak the language of love.
Thank you.
Your Daughter

P.S. I'm "here" loving you both. Anywhen and Anywhere, Mom

5 ~

God ~
THANK YOU

Goddess ~
THANK YOU

Top 15 things I am GRATEFUL for today:
Peace
Serenity
Right Action
Right Choices
Right Thought
Right Words
Cooper
Bobby
Mz. Mary
Mz. Pam
Mz. Holly
Mz. Angie
Happiness
Synchronicity
Love

P.S. NEVER loving you more than NOW!!!
Mom

Snatam Kaur ~ Deep Blue Sea

Matthew Perryman Jones Beneath the Silver Moon

It's all in the numbers ~

1 - God, Beginning, The Source, First, Commencement, Unity, The Only One
2 - Witness, Testimony, Division, Separation
3 - God Head, Divine Completeness, Perfect Testimony
4 - Earth, Creation, The World (4 Seasons, 4 Corners of the Earth... 4)
5 - Atonement (Christ's 5 nails, 5 places, Denied him 5 times), Grace, Life
6 - Man (Man Created on 6th Day)
7 - Perfection (Revelation)
8 - Number of Resurrection, New Beginning (Noah, 8th person on Earth, New Heaven and Earth on 8th             day of Resurrection of Jesus, Jesus numerical value 888)
9 - Completeness, Finality, Wholeness, Number of Holy Spirit, Fruit or Gifts
10 - Law, Order, Restoration, Government, Number of Trail, Testing Responsibility
11 - Incompleteness, Disorganized, Disintegration, 1 beyond 10 but short of 12, Number of Lawlessness,
the anti-Christ
12 - Divine Government, The Apostalistic Fullness (12 stones, 12 breads, 12 Apostles, 12 months in a year)
13 - Apostacy, Nimrod (13th son of Adam), Rebellion, Double Proportion (Judas/Paul), Ephram 13th tribe
14 - Passover
17 - Spiritual Order (Ark rested on the 17th day)
24 - Number of Priestly courses or Governmental Perfection (24 elders, Living Ones had 24 wings)
30 - Number of Consecration, Maturity for Ministry
40 - Probation, Testing, Clothing in Victory of Judgement
50 - Number of Pentacost. Liberty, Freedom, Jubilee
70 - Prior to increase
75 - Number of Separation cleansing or purification

4.40 4:20 4/20 ~

I saw the signs. 3 x 3
Three sets of 3 different signs
Mz. P and I found the message:
The TIME to LOVE is NOW

WOW
WOW
WOW

Message Received.

Goddess, GOD
I AM LISTENING. I AM WILLING. I AM OPEN. I AM LOVE.  I AM.
Your Vessel
Your Daughter

Top 10 things I am FUCKING GRATEFUL for:
Krishna
Souls
Signs
Messengers
Sacredness
Synchronicity
Divinity
Grace
Love
Yoga

P.S. My two angels always remember life is precious. LIVE IT ~ LOVE IT. Mom
P.S.S. I am leaving in 40 hours and 20 minutes from "The Mountain". Will call when I get to my next new destination.

Bow to You - Ananda & Jaya Lakshmi (Official Video)

Fabulously Fatigued ~

Never knew I could or would be so joyous to be so damn exhausted. Packing, cleaning, condensing. This is it. This is where I start living my life ~ God brought me to it. God will bring me through it. Open and willing I am. This is my time. Now is my time. Today, right this moment. The time is always now. Ohhh sweet life, I love you so ~

Goddess, God
Thank you again and again for answering all of my prayers.  I am humbly your vessel and gloriously alive ~
Your daughter

Top 10 things I am GRATEFUL for today and (yesterday):
Skype
Sweetness
Hummus
Yogis
Kundalini
Appreciation
Light
Grace
Children
Music

P.S. You know what time it is my children? Time to love. I am right now loving you ~ Mom

James Taylor - Your Smiling Face (live 1988)

...and so much more ~

I think I am done stumbling for proof of Divinity. I believe, I believe, I believe. Angels are watching over me, everywhere around me. I am truly blessed and this is clearly my time.

I am wiped out. Body is exhausted and yet sleep eludes me. Up early in the a.m. to cook my last meal here on "The Mountain". Said goodbye to my new friends in the "moat". There are some lovely people I shall miss, yet I am so excited truly excited to be moving on and starting this new life. I am READY. I have accomplished more in the least amount of time possible and feel exhilarated by it. Exhilarated and a bit overwhelmed if I let myself think about. But if I stumble now, if I fall down, if I can't be all I can be, well that is still not a failure, because I will pick myself up again and again. It's who I am. I have always been a survivor and now I am one who lives and soon I shall fly as high as my wings can take me. I am ready to soar and just standing on the precipice ready to launch. Oh I am ready to cut these tethers. Patience, patience, this will all come soon enough. Yes, there is much to still do and enjoy here. Being in this moment with my dear dear friend Mz. P, Mz. King, Mz. Linda and the yogis and my sweet sentient friends. The riotous colors of Spring. Yes, there is much I will think of fondly and much I will remember with joy. That is how I shall depart, with love in my heart. Always ~

Goddess, God
Thank you for the patience to appreciate things to come and appreciate what is here right now. There is such wonder in every moment, in every breath. Simple things, a simple life. I have everything I need and so very much more. I thank you. Truly, deeply, humbly. Wahe Guru Wahe Jio ~
Your Daughter

Top 5 things I am GRATEFUL for today:
Refills
Divine Guidance
Ease
Simplicity
Detachment

P.S. मैं तुमसे प्यार करता हूँ ~ Mom 

Tyrone Wells - A Beautiful Place To Be

Sweet Soul ~

I am so very thankful for one of the most beautiful souls I have ever encountered, my sweet friend, "The Swede" ~ 

This new life shall be an interesting one and more real than I ever could have imagined. Honesty = Me. Alas, I have friends with whom spirits are shared and love is the key to eternal companionship. A close group of souls who unite and ignite LOVE. Blessed be and thank you all for sharing in this journey ~ 

Buddhist Definition of Love and Attachment in Relationships

Love - free, flexible, patient, kind, trusting, confident, content, altruistic, generous, understanding that love exists within, expression of Buddha nature

Attachment - clinging, inflexible, impatient, unkind, jealous, insecure, craving, selfish, greedy, fulfillment sought from outside self, expression of ego

I am a being of Love ~

Those who have rejected me, rejected love. The ego heard "me" but that was not the truth.  The truth shall set me free as I accept now I was never rejected, love was rejected. True love. 

I always wonder how to thank someone for their gift of self. It is truly the most remarkably self-less gift yet it looks odd to write it. A bit, contradictory even. Hmmm...

Goddess, God

There was a time, not long ago, I merely existed

Today I am here, awake and thankful I persisted

Tomorrow is coming soon enough, I am now ready

Fortified by your Divine LOVE I shall walk steady~

Thank you.

Your Daughter

Top 5 things I am GRATEFUL for today:

Tolkens

Serenity

Vitamin C

Pixies

Unfoldment

P.S. My children, my loves, my doves, my heart. I am with you, you are with me. Saturday I am leaving. I shall miss the time you were not here, to see and share. Yet I will not stay in that place, instead I look forward into the unknown and think,"Someday they shall share your space again, and this time in joy." Mom

Ink Soundtrack (playlist)

Butch Walker And The Black Widows - Synthesizers

Simple Thank ~

Goddess, God
By Thy Grace.
I am.
Thank you.
Your Daughter

Top 5 things I am GRATEFUL for today:
Benefactors
Benevolence
Beauty
Brilliance
Bounty

P.S. Love you more than yesterday. Is that possible? It is. Mom

Nighty Night ~

Goddess, God
Thank you for answering all of my prayers. Thank you for Grace. Thank you for Love.
Your Daughter

Top 5 things I am GRATEFUL for today:
Kindness
Generosity of Spirit
Patience
Love
Tenderness

P.S. I am moving in a week my children. To the ocean. I will write you when I have a new address. Oh how I love you and long to share everything with you. I am off to begin this new life. My transition into the world is beginning. The new me in a new world. I will be working diligently towards the day you are both back in my life and until then know you are always in my heart ~ Mom

The Beatles - Across The Universe

God's Grace ~

I am awake. By God's Grace ~
I am HERE. By God's Grace ~
I am LOVE. By God's Grace ~
I am ALIVE. By God's Grace~

Thank you God ~

Your Daughter

Gentleman- Hold on strong

Protect and Serve ~

Thank you Goddess, Thank you God

Your Daughter

Top 5 things I am GRATEFUL for today:

Mary

Pam

Grey

Lani

Paullie

P.S. Kids, I love ya!

Before Bed ~

Thank you Goddess, Thank you God
Your Daughter

Top 10 things (yesterday's list included!) I am GRATEFUL for today:
Bon Voyage
Life
Waves
Friends
Family
Children
Support
Dallas
Loving
Curls

P.S. I am starting my new life kids. Give me a few to get on my own feet. Starting school and a new job. I shall be in touch, always. I am loving you, always. Mom

Ralph Zurmuhle - Lullaby For my Soul

Here comes the sun ~

After a lifetime of grey and cloudy skies, a world is unfolding with the brightest of suns yet to come
A world full of bliss and light, a world full of laughter and joy, a world full of love ~

I didn't know, I had no clue, there wasn't much point in dreaming, there was no point in pretending
I didn't know, I hadn't met you, where there was darkness there was pain, there was such sorrow
I didn't know, I have been true, here is when everything started, my life through love has begun again

Goddess, God
Fortify me in your strength, your love, your will. I am your vessel. I thank thee ~
Your Daughter

Top 5 things I am GRATEFUL for today:
Dragons
The smell of sunshine
Mother Earth
The sound of the ocean
Goodness

P.S. I'm on my way. I may not know exactly where I am going, but I am going my children into my new life. Know my door, or my tent flap, or the smoke flaps to my tipi are open to you both (It's still me you two, only more me than I have ever been), as is always the entrance to my heart. Adoring you, loving you, dreaming of you ~ Mom

George Harrison - My Sweet Lord HD

The Final Analysis ~

People are often unreasonable and self-centered. Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of ulterior motives. Be kind anyway.
If you are honest, people may cheat you. Be honest anyway.
If you find happiness, people may be jealous. Be happy anyway.
The good you do today may be forgotten tomorrow. Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have and it may never be enough. Give your best anyway.
For you see, in the end, it is between you and God. It was never between you and them anyway. 
- Mother Teresa

I was reminded of one of my favorite quotes of all times tonight. "The Final Analysis". I also thought that perhaps this should be my prayer each night. ???

So, tonight I will be forgiving, kind, honest, happy, good, and the best is I will share it all with God. 

Goddess, God
I thank you for creating me in your image. The image of love.
Your Daughter

Top 5 things I am GRATEFUL for today:
Sweetness
Weeping
Bells
Vibration
Sincerity

P.S. There is a place within my life, that is my heart, where you both reside. Mom

Love excerpt ~

"That's the thing about true love, it can slip through your fingers.  It's the most powerful magic in the world. The only magic powerful enough to break any curse. It must be protected at all costs." - Once Upon a Time

James Taylor - Shower the People (Live/1988)

Moving onward ~

Rejection never felt so good! I can't believe I gave someone the equivalent of Charlie Wonko's golden ticket and quite literally had it shredded in my face and feel better about life and love than I ever have. Quite amazing how life works out. I am more sure and steadfast in my beliefs, values, and self than ever before. I am ready for this new life and to live as the truest form of myself that I have ever been. This has been the most affirming moment of my life to date. I have acted as my truest self and accepted or rejected by others, I am loving the me that is truly love. I am love. Love is who I am. Simple as that ~

Goddess, God
Agape, Love, Bliss, Wonder, Amazement, and Joy. I thank thee.
Your Pure Daughter

Top 5 things I am GRATEFUL for today:
Rejection
Authenticity
Smell of Sunshine
Sweden
Hummus

P.S. Have I told you both lately that I love you?  Mom

Mooji - Embodiment Of Truth In Dub.wmv

For whom life's bell Tolles ~

"Give up defining yourself - to yourself or to others. You won't die. You will come to life. And don't be concerned with how others define you. When they define you, they are limiting themselves, so it's their problem. Whenever you interact with people, don't be there primarily as a function or a role, but as the field of conscious Presence. You can only lose something that you have, but you cannot lose something that you are." ~Eckhart Tolle

Etana - "Dont Forget" Music Video

Woke up this morning ~

Waking up is always, ALWAYS a good thing, a GREAT thing. It has been the test of the day to persevere, to look rejection in the eye and realize it's "their shit" not "my shit". To work THROUGH IT and to NOT get stuck IN IT. The caps make me feel a whole heck of a lot better. Feeling love for this world and all sentient beings in it. I'd rather just forgive and forget. I'm about the love. I'm not regressing, I'm progressing.

I AM LOVE.

Goddess, GOD
THANK YOU FOR HELPING ME OVERCOME THIS PAIN AND SORROW AND LOVE TODAY AND READY MYSELF FOR TOMORROW ~ Though the obstacles are in my way, I know through you I can and WILL overcome! It is never too late, that is what second chances, tomorrows are for. That is what this next moment is for. Overcoming. Thank you for this life ~
Your daughter

Top 5 things I am GRATEFUL for today:
Forgiveness
Strawberries
Closure
Resolve
Tears

P.S. Planning this new life and the day you will each be a part in it. I love you. Always, Mom

The Proclaimers - I'm On My Way

The Five Stairsteps - Ooh Child (Things are Gonna Get Easier) [MP3/Downl...

Unchained Melody ~

Loving through it (life) and not in it. You don't have to be in the midst of things to be loving it. Freedom is what love gives you. Unconditional love frees you. It does not chain nor bind. It allows your spirit to soar to the highest heights. It supports and does not contest the altitude of your soul. It is the supreme height of bliss. My thoughts for the night ~

Goddess, God

I stand naked as intended and today I have accepted it. As intended. I spoke truth. I spoke intention. I spoke love. Thank you for this life. I shall work doubly hard tomorrow to cherish it even more. 

Your daughter

Top 5 things I am GRATEFUL for today:

Angels

Unsung Goddesses

Mz. P

Sweet Sharon

Irish Indians

P.S. Oh my two dearest delights of my soul, I long to hold you, hear you, know you. Always, Mom

No more I love you's (Annie Lennox)

The Name of God ~

Om: The vibration of the Supreme, The name of God ~

Peace to all. Life to all ~

Laughter to all. Love to all ~

Smile.

Goddess, God ~
I love thee.
I thank thee.
Your Daughter

Top 5 things I am GRATEFUL for today:
Peace
Life
Laughter
Love
OM

P.S. Oh how I love you both. Mom

Ulysses ~

"To strive, to seek, to find, and not to yield." ~ Ulysses by Lord Alfred Tennyson

Goddess, God
Thank you for answering all of my prayers.
Your Daughter

Top 5:
Life
Breath
Hope
Love
Kindness

P.S. I love you

Learning How to Pray ~

One thing I want to share with my children is to learn how to pray. I saw a post on Facebook not too long ago on a very inspirational site that had it pretty clearly written out. If you pray for patience you will end up with MORE to learn to be patient about. If you pray for strength you will end up with MORE to learn to be strong about...etc. I realize that my prayers may not have been answered as I THINK I would like them answered but the truth is that EVERY prayer IS answered in GOD's time, in GOD's way. I am learning to be THANKFUL for GOD's timing in answering prayers and realizing they've already been answered. I just have yet to see it ~ A shift in perspective can change the world, your world...

I am learning to place all of my insecurities in God.

I'm here to listen, I'm here to learn. 

One Blessed Love ~

“There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle.”
― Albert Einstein

Progress ~

Set the intention. See the goal in sight. Make miracles happen. All the answers are within. All of the tools are provided. No excuses ~

Goddess, God ~
Thank you for answering every single prayer ~
Your Daughter

Top 5 things I am GRATEFUL for today:
Water
Options
Solitude
Bob
Photo Ops

P.S.  "Every little thing's is gonna be alright." ~ Bob Marley. I have nothing figured out, but for once in my life I'm not freaked out. "Get up stand up, stand up for your right, don't give up the fight." ~ Bob Marley

Random Thoughts ~

Unbuddhist Buddhist

Non-zense

Vat of Mango Pudding

"Walking down the street with my chicken and a 40..." ~ Afroman

Werewolf Heat

More Randomness TBA


Goddess, God ~
Humbled and awakened. I am listening. Open and willing I am seeing. Thank you for answering my prayers  Thank you for giving me everything I need.
Your Daughter

Top 5 things I am GRATEFUL for today:
Family (Galbraith Clan)
Sundays
Ocean
Friends (Mary, Pam, Musette, Farrah...)
Funnies

P.S. Kids, stay tuned. Mamma is making changes. Time to start living this life, my life. Right thought and right action will lead to the right life ~ The first 40 years of childhood are the hardest, so hang on kiddos, I'm just getting started! xo, Mom