A moment is all ~

I miss your large self right about now. Like nobody's business. Literally. Shocking I know. Damn. Damn. Damn. I'm fine just venting. Drowned my phone in a bucket of Murphy's Oil mixture scrubbing floors getting ready for my baby girl's visit. I'm all kinds of out of sorts and you are just the calm in my sea of silliness. Except when I'm sideways, but that's not exactly your fault at all, just the repercussions of being bashed in the face by love (my best friend/sister's saying after I met you). Please don't get weird on me again. I just needed an outlet and with you not being a fan of reading and my outlet being writing I figure it'll be awhile until this actually catches up with me and I'm really getting pretty good at ducking and weaving when it comes to you, except when I'm not. Ha! Guess this is part of the being friends part. I'd have messaged my sisters (they're like your bf, just well they are my bf), but they'd have messaged me back right about now and I don't really want to talk to anyone. I just want to tell someone. I'm scared. I'm scared I'm not enough. I'm scared she won't want me as her mom, for who I am now. I'm scared who I am now isn't enough. Having a moment is all.