Honest Abe ~

Truthful and Honest. There IS a difference.  It IS possible to be COMPLETELY truthful without being at all honest. Strange concept to many. For me, it has been my whole life. I have referred to myself as a liar. I no longer do as I no longer identify with that behavior yet it is a constant daily struggle to be mindful of my words.  I have to diligently work on not becoming defensive when asked a question that perhaps brings up no memory (a sure sign there is some icky stuff lurking around I haven't been strong enough to deal with) or triggers a rather traumatic memory. My "comfort" zone or rather "safety" zone for my heart is rather small these days. It is growing but it seems to be a relatively small step towards trusting others with my heart of hearts and all it contains. I want to be forthright and the trusting loving essence of who I was. I am being shown so many reminders of what that looks like.  My best friend from my college days, my best friend from junior high throughout high school, and even my ex and a dear friend loosely related via marriage have shown me something quite remarkable.  I am a truth teller. My heart, my heart doesn't lie. My heart has never lied. My face, my face reveals my feelings. My heart, my heart reveals my truth. I am simply a soul having quite a very human experience. That means I fuck up! LOTS. Who doesn't I suppose is the question? Being judged harshly and critically and found lacking time and again. When did I start believing what others thought of me on such a level that their story of me became my own? I am the storyteller of my life. No one else. There is so much to say, so much to share. Yet, I hesitate. I pause. I still live in a place where fear exists at times. That place is my bondage, my achilles heel, my dark stain upon my soul. I am here however and I have purpose. This life is but a blink of an eye and I plan to leave it by having served a higher purpose than surviving until this human form ends. This is the opportunity of a lifetime. TRULY. LIVE IT ALL. DO IT ALL. LIFE LIFE ~ 

Drink from the fountain of magic and dance on the wings of Grace ...

Don't dream the impossible. Do the impossible...

Top 10 things I am GRATEFUL for today:

Divinity

Grace

Love

Compassion

Gratitude

CHILDREN

Vegan Chili

Health Insurance

Friends

Truth

One Blessed Love,

K