Eh? ~

Well of all the jobs I've applied for or rather applied myself towards I get a total of one solid offer and it's in Canada. I could leave it all, all my dreams, my current goals and go. 3 weeks, new life, new country. Good, no let me correct that, GREAT money and yet it would be a short sell for the long haul. I know this process now. When nothing is coming my way, when there is a lull then something pops up. It's not jumping onto that first opportunity no matter how amazing it sounds. It's standing firm in faith. Knowing the pretty packaging doesn't make it what it ought to be even if it's a lot of what I want it to be. So, here I go again on my own and I'm doing it. I must say that even if I do end up "houseless" I didn't sell out. I'm doing this with God. The "special someone" out there who is the "lid for my pot" is what I am holding out for in ALL aspects of life. I am not just "daring to dream bigger" I am doing it and God is supporting it. So really, it's a win win. Period! I'm NOT SETTLING in ANY area of my life. I am open and willing. I am open and willing to scrub toilets, be an activity coordinator, sit my butt in school full time and teach yoga, wait tables, scoop up dog shit, whatever. I AM OPEN AND WILLING and I'm doing it THIS way because it may be hard but it is NOT difficult. Difficult is DRAMA, having a bunch of crap that does NOT need to be in my life because I "think" it makes things easier. I'll use my cheap ass flip phone and pay it myself. It's not pride, it's LOVE, self-love. I'm worth more than settling, each person sharing this all too human experience is worth more than settling. We are souls, we should be with the mate to our soul, or at the very least if that other half is unavailable this time around, if our split-apart has moved on to another realm for instance, than we should stay within our soul "group". People who support one another and uplift each other while working together towards a common goal: Enlightenment. My world includes; yoga, meditation, kirtan, prayer, books, nature, animals, and always children. The rest is material to many yet immaterial to me. I care, to a certain point, then really I do not after a certain point. It's less and less important to me, this material world. Yet for my children, for this new goal set, for this new dream I will harmonize, I will balance, and I will not take what option is thrown out no matter the temptation to run away and hide no matter how I justify it. Even if some of these temptations have 10 packs (that's like a 6 pack made in prime woman hormonal heaven dreams, benefits of maturing in years is the reference point). Whew, I need a cold shower, a cold shower and a nap. Ha ha... Wow, the whole "Principals only mean something when you stand by them in their inconvenience" has never quite rung so true."  Across the board I am upholding these standards. Well, I'm healthy, and I'm content which right now is better than happy because it's balanced. Plus this tired it's hard even for me to muster up extreme enthusiasm. I can however muster up extreme gratitude!  Here I go, Round 2, getting up for work at 4 a.m. to get my head in the game for my 6 a.m. start time. Not leaving anything out. Kabbbalah, yoga, meditation, course in miracles, water, nutrients, breakfast, more water... I got this!!!

Goddess - I am the vibration, feel me ~
God    
Lacing up my gloves, setting my intention I climb into the ring
This isn't a fight, this is a battle as I am your soldier, you are my King
Bright like the sun you light up the way, exposed, I am no longer shielded
Taking cover isn't an option, standing alone yet it's your power I've wielded
THANK YOU ~ I am tasting each moment in you, through you, and by your Grace
This is the time, and the time is now, for my life, your life, in me ~

By Your Grace,
Your Pure Daughter

Top 5 Things I am GRATEFUL for today:
Temptation
Growth
Health
Wholeness
Graciousness

P.S. Oh you two apples of mine eye, how do I love thee? Like an ant loves a family picnic that ends in spilled crumbs and leftover messes on clear warm sunny days. Like a dog loves a stick that is continually thrown and never lost across a body of water not too deep to traverse and close enough to run back. Like a bear loves the first day of spring when the last vestiges of winter have melted off into the dawn and the appetite for life is unsurpassed by any other sensation, even hunger. Like that and so very much more. Always, Mom