Lesson # ? ~

Thought I'd learned this lesson: One Day at a Time. I'm taking a wild guess here that I did not. I may not be getting fired, however, I have no idea how long I will stay here and really what is going to happen. Lesson? Live each day, one day at a time. I really thought I had this. Then I realized, when I was in California last, though my little support group was mottled and far spread, there was something that looked a lot like a security net, at least from the tight rope I was walking then. As Mz. P reminded me, now there is no safety net, truly nothing. It's funny how we think we have learned something and then we relearn it and go,"Wait a minute, I know these steps, I just did this dance." Well boogie woogie baby, I didn't learn it well enough. I really don't know if I'll get fired or fed up first or maybe I'm just going to really let go and let God field this inning! Stranger things have happened. I actually like my kids dad again, in a totally platonic baby daddy kind of way, but the bullshit from the past, even the bullshit still presently apparent it doesn't matter. It's not my shit anymore and so it doesn't fall into my lap or my world. Plus, we made some pretty amazing kids together. Can't dislike someone for too long that contributed to your hearts purpose! Anyways, the big lesson is just make each day the best damn day because tomorrow is truly never promised and what may happen tomorrow is not promised and hell if it's gonna be a hard day might as well have the best day only one day away! I don't think with that attitude I can go wrong. Besides I'm a happy girl and it's time each day was a true representation of that ~ I'm tired as hell and smiling now. Perhaps this is the miracle I have been praying for. Damn, once again, all my prayers have been answered. It's all about perspective. I've got this, well God's got this. We've got this ~

Goddess - I exalt thee, I am strength personified bathed in the power of Divine
God
I am standing tall, no longer will I cower, this is my turn and I am going to rise
This life has just begun, as I stand on the precipice, seeing with new eyes
I know YOU love me, that knowledge alone has changed my entire world
No longer am I broken and beaten, afraid of my own shadow, a scared little girl
There is a plan I must follow that you've laid out, most especially for me
Yes God, this is your world now, and whatever my life will be, will be ~
THANK YOU!

By your Grace alone ~
Your Pure Daughter

Top 5 Things I am GRATEFUL for today:
Dr. Brad
Stripes
Polka Dots
Beano
HEALTH

P.S. Mom here, just a little reminder that I love you both. Hmmm, I think you should know one more thing tonight: I don't want any take backs. NONE AT ALL. I wouldn't trade my worst day for a new day because then there would be a chance that there could be a day without you both in it.   ~  Love you like Saturn loves it's rings, Like Uranus loves it's, oh well you get the point. :)