Don't quote me but I think I'm starting to really like it here. Everything I need. I have. Everything else? We'll see. There's no rush and no need to worry. Negative emotions are futile and serve no purpose. I am so grateful for yoga and the focus it brings me. There are good times and bad. All lessons, all reminders to stay focused and to just not give up. Ever. Nothing is permanent. Change really is the only thing that is guaranteed. Pretty simple. Harder to apply. Wow. What a difference time makes. Just 24 hours can change the perspective on everything.
I thank the Divine Creator for the ability to stay connected to friends back home. I love thinking of a place on this planet as home. Weird, that used to send a really different feeling through my core. Now it's all warm and fuzzy. The place I call home isn't even located on a beach. Yet, home is where your heart is. The best part about having a home, I can carry that feeling with me wherever I go. It's a sense of belonging somewhere no matter where I am. It's fan-fucking-tastic! Guess this is a whole new world after all. I love knowing that there is a "home base" that I can visit, recharge my batteries, regroup, catch-up with my "friblings" (friends who are siblings, I read the definition on the internet so it must be true). For now I live here, on "The Mountain". Life right now is about my adventures here. After this assignment ends? Who knows? I will be ready for a new adventure. I am finding I am truly up for just about anything. Pretty exciting stuff. Funny, it's the most settling feeling I've ever had in my life. That I belong. That I belong to this world and in this world and that I am of this world. I have purpose by just being. I have value by just breathing. I take and I give. The last couple of years. I've received a lot. A lot of grace. A lot of tools. A lot of patience. Most of all a lot of love. Love from folks back at "home base" and a few more around the globe and even here on "The Mountain". My cup runneth over. My heart is full. I have officially fallen in love with love. I'm having the time of my life by loving the life I have.
I had a thought, not a very profound thought. However, it illustrates my feelings on the past pretty succinctly. My past isn't anymore a part of me than a toenail I cut off is still a part of my toe. It is more and more becoming about that important. I'm detached from it. Aside from my children and some hazy memories, well, the past is truly the past. I'm ready to move forward. Lighter. Freer. Kinder. Me-er. ;-)
Miracles happen everyday. I know because today, I cried. I cried because I am at some kind of place within myself where I have peace. Kinda diggin' being me. That's not a revelation, that's a fucking miracle! Can I get an AMEN?
Note to self: Self I accept you for every imperfection and fault, because of every unique trait you posses you are you.
To quote the best Doctor I've never met: “Today you are You, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is Youer than You.” ― Dr. Seuss
Top 5 things I am thankful for today:
Sunshine
Friendship
LED flashlights
Yoga
Love
Namaste - K
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