Letting go of the fear, throwing the box of fear out of my universe, my world. I am headed for the greatest experience chalked full of love and the reunion my heart has longed for. Both babies and I together again in a mere few weeks. Finances - will work out. Work - is happening. I am HERE and READY to make this happen. There is no stopping this mom going to her babies. Seeing her baby boy graduate. Holding her children close. Seeing her darling daughter again. So much happiness and joy and a few mere obstacles. I'm a hurdler of life's bumps, gold medal level. Bring it on baby, I've got my running shoes dusted off. If I need to start running to Utah to make this happen so be it. I'm on my way to hold in my arms the only two beings my soul longs for. That is my reality. That is my truth. LOVE and my LOVE(S) are waiting for me. I shall not fail them. I can not for God is in the driver's seat and I am doing what is required to be a worthy passenger of the express train to completion. Full circle. Fear is no longer dictating my direction. I give it to God.
Goddess, God
I thank you for leading me on this journey to a life full of wonder and joy and beauty unlike anything I could have envisioned. My heart alights with so much gratitude and sheer delight I am here, RIGHT NOW, to feel and experience and witness the miracle that is life, that is creation. Thank you for my time here. Thank you for time. Thank you for all of the trails and tribulations that have molded me into the vessel for your Grace to fill and the essence of Love to guide my soul back into your Divine Embrace. Your Devoted Daughter
Top 10 things I am GRATEFUL for today:
Miracles
Prayer
Retribution
Strength
Promise
Grace
God
Yoga
Vision
Devotion
P.S. Soon you shall both be in my embrace. The embrace of a mother holding her two most cherished heart's delights. To say I am "looking forward to it" is a gross understatement. To say I am every waking moment closer to Nirvana and the happiest moment of my life to date is closer to my personal truth. Now I shall rest to work to strengthen my body and mind and spirit to be the best I can be and give you the best I can be to date. I am a work in progress, know I am only partially at my full potential yet light years from the broken dying being that was. This is all new, I am your mother, yet a different mother than you have had, and more of the one you each deserve. I am focused on our collective futures and offer everything I am to each of you. Right now, who I am is so much more than who I was, except one thing has never changed. I absolutely fucking adore you two and every cent, every hour, every breath contributed to bettering myself and changing old behaviors and thoughts and eliminating my dis-ease expressing illness riddled body of toxicity I dedicate to you both. You gave me the reason, God gave me the strength. I write this as your mother, as a woman, and as someone who came so close to checking out and the person who now plans to stand before you with the strength of the Almighty at my back. For all that I am and all I will ever be I thank you both for never losing sight that miracles come to those who refuse to give in. I had two angels that reminded me to keep on going, and I didn't have the heart to let them down. Thank you my angels, my heart, and my soul's eternal familial companions, my son and my daughter. Loving you in all lifetimes ~ Mom
