Apply Within ~

What I want? Keeping in mind this is setting the intention for goals and not for plans. I hope I've learned a few things by now, like not making plans. That's God's department, I just make the goals, set the intention, and follow through baby. It's not a race, it's not a competition with anyone but yourself (myself). I'm challenging myself to dream the biggest I've ever dared to dream.  I've been building up to this, it's like a crescendo rising to meet life full on at optimal capacity. My own life force building and building. It's surreal that in the most uncertain of times, with zero "safety net" (or at least the illusion of one, generally with backup plans that generally also had backup plans, referred to as backup plans A-Z with backup plans A-Z squared).  I've found my inner voice, my inner strength. I have thought more than once, WHERE WAS THIS GIRL WHEN I REALLY NEEDED HER? However, she has always been here is the resounding answer. I just haven't been in a place, to feel this safe, within, nor have I had this faith in God, within. All I ever needed was just a heartbeat away. My own. I just had to learn to listen. There is God pumping life into this vessel for a purpose. I am a soul. I am a purpose. I am a soul with a purpose and a purpose with a soul.

What tonight's big revelation look like and sound like?
My spirit has always been free, within my soul, and my purpose, my purpose is to love in this life. To learn to love no matter what. To respond and not to react. To listen and not speak unless I have something to contribute, not just something to say. It's a lot of lessons strung together over and over again. It just doesn't have to be so difficult does it?

Goddess
God
There is such a thing as being bone weary and exhausted, I'm tired and sore
My body aches, my head hurts, yet strangely I am ready for more
Today was nuts as you know, validation comes from within not without
I said goodbye to that last attachment, goodbye forever I have no doubt
It's freeing, liberating, exhilarating, it's time to look at the possibility of forever
I gave up too soon, I kept using that one damn word: NEVER
I'm learning God, I'm off to bed to get some sleep, thank you for not giving up on me
I need to get my rest now to start the best of my life, I plan to return the favor you see ~

By your grace,
Your Pure Daughter

Top 5 Things I am GRATEFUL for today:
Graceful Gratitude
Deep Appreciation
Discernment
Intuition
FAITH

P.S. Hey you two, Mom here, I started trusting God, acknowledging God, and you know what? Things are working out, I'm totally rocking the honest thing, it's a process, but well it's amazing. I won't change myself for anyone anymore. I have standards all the way across the board and it's like God expects us to have them, like, it's the way it was always supposed to be. I don't know, this consistency is pretty new to me (as you both know). I'm scared shitless, but I'm alive to be scared shitless. I'm pretty stoked about that part. One day we will share and celebrate this craziness. One day soon. I love you more than all the m & ms in the universe (even the coconut ones)! Mom