Taming of the shrew ~

How to demonstrate kindness? BE KINDNESS! How to demonstrate love? BE LOVE!
The best teachers are those that lead by example. The best leaders are those who go into battle before their men and are the last to leave the field ~ Am I a teacher and a leader? I am preparing to become one. It is so very difficult. Drawing boundaries, learning to express needs gently. This is my intention.  I must listen so I may fulfill my higher purpose. I fear loss of stability, yet I know it is an illusion. An illusion I have come to appreciate more than ever. The illusion opened the doors for my children and I to reconnect. There are so many other excuses. Including the rather narrow perception that one person has my lady balls in a vice. HOWEVER, this is THE TIME. I must now stand tall, stand firm, and stand true.I must let go and allow GOD. PERIOD.  There are obstacles and there are just really wide parts of the river. Which is it? Either a difficult crossing or a seemingly impossible one. Are circumstances and adversity enough to stop me now? It has been feeling like it might hinder my progress. I have felt stuck. I know better. I have survived my own personal apocalypse. Now I must give back this gift of life by doing what is right. This is when it counts. The chips are down, I am alone. Now is when I must trust in God and have faith in this process ~  Shit I am so very scared. Terrified is more like it. Yet, I am preparing, not to sharpen a sword or my tongue, (metaphorically speaking) but soften my heart. This isn't the time to present the steel but share the soft warmth of my spirit and envelope that which has been revealed to me in a loving embrace. Facing my fears with compassion. Now I understand. It was not just a metaphor. An enemy has no power if it has no hate to spread. I won't accept the spreading of this dis-ease of non-affirming toxicity.

I AM PEACEFUL WITH MY EMOTIONS AND I LOVE AND APPROVE OF MYSELF AND OTHERS. FORGIVENESS IS A NATURAL STATE OF MY BEING. LOVE IS WHO I AM AND WHAT I AM.

Oh God, hear my prayer. I ask for the space within to be filled with your Divine Grace and allow me to be the vessel to demonstrate loving kindness to all other sentient beings (one specific!). Please guide me and strengthen me to act and not to react. For my heart to lead. For my love to speak. In this way I am both truthful and honest. In this way I am the essence of life. I am a pure daughter of God.

Top 5 things I am GRATEFUL for today:
CHILDREN (always and forever)
Opportunities for growth
Movies
Cactus Pancakes
LOVE

One Blessed Love,
Kathleen