The sword and The shield ~

Life is too short to feel bogged down with guilt and shame. OVER WHAT? Does God really expect us to live out our quite short existence in this human form feeling horrible all the time. Are the sins of our past (who deemed us sinful to begin with I'd like to know, my best guess, a VERY HUMAN IDIOT!) really what we are? NO. The Buddhists have this part right on the money I'd say and that is that this thing called karma, it's the energy we put out towards others, other sentient beings, if it's not kind, not compassionate, well we will need to learn a humbling lesson to become kind and compassionate the next time we are introduced to the same situation and until we do we will learn over and over and over again.  I don't think it is quite as complex as my Buddhist brethern make it out to be. I mean I have it down to this:

One Commandment: Love One Another

One Sin: Separation from God

Karmic Law: Be Compassionate towards ALL Sentient Beings

Mormon Contribution: CTR - Choose the Right 

My bedtime prayer contributed tonight by Kahlil Gibran

You cannot ask for anything in prayer,
because God already knows your deepest needs.
As God is our main need,
so we should not pray for other things,
but ask for more of God.~ Kahlil Gibran

Goddess

God

Please hear my prayers,

I humbly ask for more:

wisdom

strength 

courage

perseverance

kindness

gentleness

honesty

openness

willingness

humility

miracles

forgiveness

love

You see my heart, I surrender my will.

Lead me, I shall follow 

By your Grace alone I am,

through your Love I will be

In this and in all things,

I thank thee ~

Your pure daughter

Top 5 things I am GRATEFUL for today:

Raising Hope

Mz. Pene

Mz. P

All things French

Miracles

P.S. Tu (yes dear daughter, that's you), I love u. I miss u. I thought I saw your face today, I was watching a movie, the little girl, she looked like you. The soft dark curls around the biggest eyes the warmest color of amber I've ever seen next to yours.  Even the lightest sprinkling of freckles on her face. You are so incredibly perfect. You have always been so strong and sure of yourself in so many ways. Outspoken yet with a heart that has the capacity to love the world. Oh my baby girl, I desire only for you to go, go and grow and spread your wings and shine, shine so brightly that those not able to stand in the light fall away and you are only surrounded with angels, angels like yourself. Your compassion doesn't all have to come from personal experience honey. Trust your sensitivity, your innate sense of right. Shine baby. Just shine... Vea, The man you are is the man your father has the potential of becoming. All of your goodness and generosity of spirit son and your genuine humility, you are teaching your father to become the man he was intended to be. You are your grandfather's son. I could not possibly be more proud of you, more in awe of you. I think to myself so often that I want to become a role model  to you both, to become the type of woman your sister would be proud to become and the type of woman you would be proud to marry. The truth is though, your sister is teaching me how a Divine woman behaves and you are teaching me and showing me what a Divine man looks like. Who a man is. From the first, you have been a prince. Now you have become a King.  Remember who is the sword and who is the shield.  Never forget the importance of each and the miracle of teamwork ~ Your father and I have faults yet I am remembering many strengths as well. I am reminded of them through you both. You have all of our goodness, all of your own, and all of the Divine Grace of God blessed upon your heads.  I am always loving you and always thinking of you, and if you ask yourselves,"Can that possibly be true that she ALWAYS does?" The answer is "Yes". That's one of the perks of being a bona fide nut job. I have at least a couple of spare people in my head and we ALL love you both very much.  In a "nutshell" (ha ha) one of the "someones" inside of me is always thinking of you two! I think that makes a crazy case of perfect sense. Regardless, I love you and that's the point I'm getting at. Today was a tough day. Knowing I can tell you both how much I love you in some way, getting the energy out there, the words out there, the prayers out there, it's all connected and this love I feel is connected to you.

Mom