Most amazing news today: it's official I am one healthy girl. Inside and out, it all checks out. My last test result was waiting in my mail slot this morning when I checked in for work. I feel like this is the fresh new everything. Nothing else matters anymore. None of the bullshit from before today has any place in this new life. The only thing that can destroy my life is me living in fear. There's nothing to fear anymore. It's all been confirmed, it's in black and white. By God's GRACE I am IN IT, this LIFE, it's time to start living it and stop fearing it. What's done is done. I am a whole person with a whole life. God provided. It's just amazing to me that I ever felt alone when all along I've been cherished and loved by God. I was chosen for God's purpose. What higher calling have I been waiting for? I'm open and willing to this life and ready to go forth and live it.
My advice when praying? BE READY! I never ever ever thought this day would come. I was so secretly (I don't know how secret it really was now) terrified of each test and the outcome, on pins and needles. I didn't want to say anything and give something power over me, my life, my health. It was like in direct opposition to faith, to God. God provided even though I doubted. Who am I to ever again doubt God. I'm sorry is sadly lacking the depths of my sorrow for the years and the tears, yet it's with compassion and love I can release this now. God, Divine Grace I am humbled, shaken, weak, yet, I am alive. What a day. What a life, and just to think it's just begun ~
GOD -
Oh Divine Creator.
I thank you for making me whole.
For showing me my true self.
For never doubting me.
For never giving up on me.
For always loving me.
For showing me the path.
For answering all of my prayers.
Hear my gratitude, see my intentions
Listen to my song as words can not express
This total wonderment and moment of unutterable emotion
How do I repay my life? How do I repay a total second chance?
I give it all to you, I am yours
By Your Grace Alone, I am yours
Your Pure Daughter
Kathleen Elizabeth ~
Top 5 things I am GRATEFUL for today:
Miracles
Life
Love
Health
Happiness
P.S. Kids, please check your email. I am healthy! Really and truly healthy. More than "healed" I have health in body, mind, and spirit. This has been the longest road to travel to get to this point yet, it's the road I had to travel to aquire the wisdom and tools and the insight to continue this journey, my journey. I believe the rest of this life is the best of my life. You both, you have had the worst, now you are going to get the best. This time I won't let you down. God didn't let me down, so I'm not letting God down. Simple as that. I love you both so much there are simply no words to express the depths of this love that God has shown me. This love is so vast and expansive, an abyss so deep it is fathomless. As God's love for me is so absolute so is my love for you both. I only know one way to express this love for you both, to express my gratitude for my life, my love for God and my total and utter humble appreciation and thanks, I will show you with my new life. One Day at a Time. In all that I am and all that I will be, Mom
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