Northward Bound ~

I had a flash today of how my life could be. It was everything I have been saying "never" to and about for the past 2 1/2 years + a lifetime of "nevers" in regards to very specific things. Vague but hey I am not feeding something energy (that has some residual fear or anxiety attached to it) that may very well be the best thing, besides being a mother to my children, that has ever happened to me in my life so far. It's like I felt a hat being placed upon my head to get used to the weight. The feel of this specific hat. Definitely feels Divinely Inspired. I am trusting my intuition. I even looked up a couple of things on the World Wide Web of Factual Information (ha ha), just a little very human fact checking. It all pans out. I'm ready for this new life, well, totally ready except those last ten pounds I re-shed over winter, the yoga regime that isn't as tight on the physical side as it was two months ago before I fell, and blah blah blah blah blah.... Really, who am I kidding? I have school, and blah blah blah blah blah, nothing figured out, but goals and intentions SET. The rest as I keep saying, much like a MANTRA, is totally up to God. God's plan. My heart is open. I am ready. I think I was just turned around. I have been so set on getting back down Southward, the islands: SOUTH, this country: SOUTH, south, south, south. I need to look North. Towards new possibilities, a new outlook, a new me in a new Northern Experience. I am open and willing. I wasn't even open and willing a short while ago. Now in 40 degree weather I AM THE ONE WEARING FLIP-FLOPS. Oh my. My internal GPS is still on the fritz, ha ha, but acclimation is going quite well (as of the past 45 days). I'm going to stop now because I just started wearing this hat and lovely as it is to know my world is about to get tossed upside down, I still need to rest. Big day tomorrow checking out the retreatants after a month. Oh how I will be sad to see them go. I just love each and every one of them. This next retreat is full of ample growth opportunity and grow I will. Only two weeks, I can do it. I have yoga, an amazing network of supportive friends, animals, and sunshine (sometimes just in my soul, but it works).

Goddess ~ I ask for the strength of the Feminine Divine.  Please hold me, strengthen me, and guide me to your express purpose. I am your faithful daughter. In all my imperfections and the mirror of your perfection. I thank you for your infinite wisdom ~

God

Thank you for this life. This shift, this change, in myself, and in the beyond.  I give you my worry, my strife, my unresolved difficulties, and exchange them for a purity of mind and body and spirit. Renewed in Divine Love, Strengthened in Divine Grace ~  Your Daughter

Top 5 things I am GRATEFUL for today:

Hats

Bonding

Confidence

Humility

Growth

P.S. Hello my children. Mom here. I don't have a clue where I am being led right now, but it's somewhere, and somehow, someway you will both be better for wherever God leads my life. I love you two so very much. I long to hold you. I am here. Here, will always be the place I am for you both. I am your mom. Besides that very significant bit of information (makes me all warm and fuzzy. :)), is the fact that even as unbiased as I can possibly be, the truth is you are both so incredibly fantastically amazing. You are people I would be honored to know in my life. You inspire me to never give up, never stop hoping, and never stop trying. I love you so very much. Always, Mom